Chaplain Dave

Brief Update and Why I have not Written

2011-01-13T19:51:00.003-05:00

I guess I've lost interest in my blog. Since my last update, we celebrated my son's 4th birthday. We had thanksgiving with one of the other CPE resident's family. I finished my 2nd unit of CPE. We had an awesome 2 weeks of leave over the last two weeks of December. We enjoyed Christmas as a family and with our extended families through the miracle of Skype. We surprised the kids with two nights of fun at the Great Wolf Lodge. Now, I'm in the middle of my first 3 week stint of classes at Erskine Theological Seminary for my D.Min. I hate being away from my family for 3 weeks, but it is much better than being deployed for 12 months.

One reason I think I've lost interest in this form of communication because it seems shallow for me. I don't mean to say that it's shallow for everyone. I read blogs every day that are full of deep, intimate thoughts and feelings. I simply don't feel safe doing so through this type of communication. I think it's the effects of CPE and how much more self aware I have become. I value being able to share deep an intimate thoughts with people. That seems worth it. It has value. This doesn't seem to have that value.

The other reason I've stayed away is because everything has not been ok and I haven't been able to say anything because it could have further hurt those I care about to do so. That being the case, sharing my life and acting like nothing bad is happening feels like lying. Now, that I can share and know it will not harm those I care about, I'll say a little. I will not get into the specifics here, but when people I trusted did something to hurt my family and act as if they have done nothing wrong it makes me feel sick. On top of that, knowing they have hid the truth of how it all happened from the people they lead, people I love, has brought me to tears. It has made me question 5 years of ministry and I have no good answers. I question every time someone communicated they were hurt by the leadership and I sided with the leadership because it seemed rational. I question every time we hid things from the people we led with the excuse that we didn't want to expose private problems to the church at large. I'm angry at the people who have caused this hurt now and I'm angry at myself for not recognizing the hurtful actions I supported, both vocally and with my silence, in the past.

By the way, anger isn't a sin. We are told not sin in our anger and I don't believe I've done so. Anger based on evil motives or resulting in evil expressions is sin, but anger by itself is not sin. I want to talk to these people about it, but I'm afraid I will hear all the same old things that I've heard told to so many others in the past and that will not help me work towards forgiveness and reconciliation. It will only make me more angry.

Please do not worry about me. I'm working through this with people I trust (who also happen to be trustworthy). My CPE supervisor has been particularly helpful and I thank God for his wisdom and genuine care for me. My family relationship with God is stronger and closer than it has ever been. My wife and children are a constant joy in my life. The pursuit of higher education, while very challenging, is also something that has been very rewarding for me.

So, I will not stay away forever, but don't be surprised when I don't write on here.

Learning

2010-10-23T13:42:00.003-05:00

"It's all about your learning." Anyone who has ever taken a unit of CPE (Clinical Pastoral Education) has probably heard that statement more times than they care to remember. When I consider what my ministry looked like in June and what it looks like today, I can honestly say the last 4 months have really been all about my learning. The difference in my pastoral care for patients has improved exponentially. A lot of it is due to examining and dealing with some painful events from my past and present. It's amazing how much something I was told as a child or the way people I trusted and loved recently treated my family have had an effect on my ministry. Realizing the effect and then working through it is a very effective way to make yourself more available to God's leading in ministry. I won't say more than that because it really is something you have to experience to understand. All I will say, is that if you're in a ministry where you ever do or may have to visit a patient, please take at least one unit of CPE. It's painful and difficult, but it's worth the pain.

Everything is going well for us as a family. God has blessed us with health and happiness. We'll celebrate my son's 4th birthday tomorrow. He and our girls are a source of a lot of joy for us. We're enjoying the Pacific North West as much as we can because we may only be here for 1 year. We've been to Pacific Ocean and Mt. rainier and I'm sure we'll get more opportunities to enjoy the beauty of creation here. We miss our family and frien

ds back East, but enjoy the opportunity to see many things and meet many people that we never would without my ministry in the Army.

- Dave

Abby and CPE

2010-08-07T10:38:00.001-05:00

Without a doubt, the biggest thing that's happened since my last post is the arrival of our 4th child. Abby arrived on July 14th and, as usual, we were hooked from the first moment. A new child brings so much joy to a family. I guess it's appropriate that her middle name is Joy I've noticed lately that a parents can just stare at their new baby for hours and hours and not get bored, even when the baby isn't doing anything. I'm not sure there is anything else comparable. Our other 3 children seem to be adjusting well to having a new sister. It doesn't seem to phase our oldest at all anymore. Our 5 year old girl thinks it's the coolest things ever and our 3 year old boy is very tender and gentle with his new little sister.
Our life situation is so different from when we had our first three. When the others were born, our old church was great about telling me to take as much time as I needed to help my wife. While the Army gives 10 days of paternal leave to new dads, i was unable to take it due to my status as a CPE Resident. The course of study has a requirement of hours for each unit of study, so I couldn't take any more time off besides the day of her birth. We've been very thankful to have my wife's mom and my parents out to help for the 1st three weeks. Since my wife has to have C-sections, the recovery time is significantly longer and she is not allowed to drive until 4 weeks after the surgery. Now that all the family has gone home, things seem to be going very well and I think we're adjusting well to being a family of 6.
In ministry news, CPE (Clinical Pastoral Education) has already been a life changing experience. Since it uses the adult learning model, which is so unusual, I'll try to explain how it works. It all starts with deciding what you want to learn. Students write their own learning goals and how they intend to learn said goals. Each morning consist of about 4 hours of group time. During this time, we have didactics, verbatims and IPRs. A didactic is when the supervisor teaches us in a traditional sense. It may be through a review of a book or a lecture on a relevant topic. Occasionally, we also go to a seminar. Verbatims are times when a group member presents a word for word example of a visit with a patient or prisoner. The verbatims include theological reflection, psychological reflection, emotional reflection, cognitive reflection, sociological reflection and a discussion on how the visit related to your learning goal. After reading through it, the supervisor asks the presenter where they'd like to start and the group then begins to ask questions. Usually we focus on major shifts in the conversation. These are times, when the chaplain either consciously or sub-consciously avoids a topic that the patient brings up. When that topic is discovered, the group helps the chaplain unpack why the topic was avoided. Most of the time, it is due to the chaplain having an unresolved emotional issue (i.e. guilt, pain, death, etc.). To say the least, this is very painful process. The value is in being able to discover where one needs to do self work in order to be emotionally and cognitively present when entering the room of a patient, so that ministry can take place. Theology is often challenged as well. We say we believe certain things, but our visits bring out what we believe in practice. One of our supervisors goals is challenge us to keep these areas consistent. IPR (interpersonal relationships) time is 2 hours of unstructured group time. The idea is to talk about issue we have with each other in group. We're still trying to figure this part out, but as far as I can tell, the idea is to teach us to deal with conflict. If we can confidently deal with conflict in group, we can deal with the conflict of helping a patient or family member acknowledge impending death when it's being avoided.
The afternoons consist of clinical time. This is when we make our hospital visits, interact with hospital staff and then chart on patients. We have different wards in each of our 4 units, including the possibility of a unit at the prison on FT. Lewis. My first unit has been spent making visits to the NICU (neo-natal intensive care unit), Labor and delivery, pediatrics and the PICU (pediatric intensive care unit). I've really enjoyed having the chance to minister to these families. Perhaps the most amazing thing I've learned is how successful a NICU is when a baby makes it to 28 weeks of gestation. I never realized how many very premature babies are able to make it and then lead very normal lives.
Besides verbatims, we also write weekly process notes, read at least 1000 pages on related topics each unit and have a weekly ISH (Individual Supervision) where we sit down 1 on 1 with our supervisor.
While what I've learned about myself is very private because it deals with suppressed emotional issues, I can you this process is more effective for pastoral care than any of my previous education (BA, MA, MDIV) or experience (11 years in pastoral ministry). For that reason, I believe every minister involved in any type of pastoral care should take at least 1 unit of CPE. If nothing else, it will help you to actually hear the people who come from counseling and not be deaf to many of your own issues when they are brought up in another person's story.
The reason most ministers will never do this is because it threatens our pride. It tell us we don't have it all together. It challenges our theology and ministry practices. Those are all goof things from my perspective, but I know many in ministry do not share my perspective.
On top of 4 units (about 10 weeks each) we'll also be making 2 three week trips to Erskine Seminary in Due West, SC to work on a DMIN (Doctor of Ministry) degree. This degree is completely separate from our work in CPE, but it is also a requirement of the Army for CPE Residents. Considering that the Army pays for the whole thing, I'm not complaining. My first three weeks trip will be in January, with another to follow in MAY. Other than that, there is a lot of pre and post work for each course and then several years to work on a dissertation.
There's probably more I could tell you about our lives, but I'm tired of typing. Plus, CPE requires that I write and talk about myself a lot already.

-Dave

Settling In

2010-06-16T23:48:00.001-05:00

We've had quite an exciting couple of weeks!

It all started with the packers boxing up all of our stuff that could be boxed. After that we had two nights in the house with very little left besides our beds. Then the movers showed up. They quickly realized they already had too much on the truck to fit all of our stuff. They did the best they could, but we still had a garage full of stuff left over. The rest of the stuff got picked up the next day and was then crated and shipped.

That was on Friday and Saturday of a holiday weekend and I couldn't sign out until Tuesday, so we spent the next couple of nights at the Fort Drum Inn, where we had spent our first month at Drum. We pulled out of Drum on 1 JUN and after a couple of hiccups we finally got out of Watertown. We made it to Cleveland on the first night and left bright and early for a big day the nest morning.

I had sent an email to some Notre Dame athletic department staff to let them know I'd be coming through and if possible, it was a dream of mine to see the stadium from the inside. I got an email back and it was all set up. The day ended up blowing us away. I was greeted by my contact who turned out to also be an assistant coach. Not only did we see the stadium, we went in the locker room, down the steps and out the tunnel. I was told no one gets to do this except AD and Football people but they wanted to make an exception for a lifelong fan who serves his country. I was truly in AWE! We also got to go up in the press box to check out the view and were given a tour of the rest of campus to include the dome, basilica and TD Jesus. It's still all a bit surreal for this Irish fan. You can check out my pictures here

After that, we spent the next two nights in Chicago and somewhere in Minnesota. the kids did great and enjoyed all the lovely Hampton Inn pools. After that we headed to South Dakota. It's a great state for sight seeing, so we slowed down and spent two nights there. On our first day, we visited a cowboy town (pretty much an old tourist trap), an American Indian archeological dig site and the corn palace. The next day was devoted to Rushmore and a drive through safari where bears come right up to the car. Rushmore is awesome and highly recommend making the trip at least once in your lifetime because there is truly nothing else like it on earth. We then moved on through Wyoming to Montana. This part of the country s really beautiful. I still can't draw my eyes away from the Mountains. After that, we pushed through Idaho and spent our last night on the road at a hotel in Tacoma. We arrived at our new home on 8 JUN and are settling in nicely after a few hiccups. Mount Rainier is clearly visible on a clear day. If you've never been out west, it's hard to explain it. What we call mountains on the east coast are really nothing more than bumps. The thing is huge and the snow capped peak often appears to be floating on a cloud.

I'm in-processing FT Lewis this week and getting a bit of an intro to CPE. I'm sure will be plenty more to write about that as the year progresses because it will be quite intense. My favorite quote so far is, "as ranger school is to the infantry, CPE is to the chaplaincy."

Blessings,

Dave

Memorial Day Leaving FT Drum

2010-05-31T08:47:00.002-05:00

Today we honor those who have sacrificed our their lives while fighting for our freedoms. I pray and hope that in the midst of enjoying the day off, many will take some time to honor these brave men and women. I specifically have three of them on my mind today. SPC P, SGT M and INT A you will not be forgotten.

I sign out of FT Drum tomorrow and we will begin our trip to FT Lewis, WA. I feel like I've been saying goodbye for more than a month. We don't do a Battalion Hail and Farewell every month, so I was officially farewelled in April. I then received my PCS award at the beginning of May and said goodbye to the Headquarters and Headquarters Detachment. That still left a month of time at the 91st. One of our Senior NCOs found it funny to ask how many months it had been since my farewell on a regular basis. I also felt like I was saying goodbye to someone almost every day. I did my best to finish well. I made sure to stretch out my clearing appointments, so I could still effectively minister all the way until my Household Goods were being packed last week. My replacement will not arrive at FT Drum until late June, so I've been communicating with him by phone and email. I think I've prepared him as much as possible. It's hard to leave a unit I deployed with and have spent so much time serving. The Soldiers of the 91st will always have a special place in my heart.

My first experience with clearing has gone well. I turned in all my equipment without any trouble and all my appointments have been mostly painless. our only issue was with the movers and packers not estimating correctly and causing a portion of our stuff to be shipped separately. We're spending our final days here at the FT Drum Inn, where we spent our first several weeks since our beds are now gone as well. We went to chapel for the last time on Sunday and said goodbye there as well.

My family is doing well. the kids seem to be handling the move well. My wife isn't exactly comfortable at this point in the pregnancy, but so far both she and the baby have been in perfect health. We're going to take 8 days to travel from FT Drum to the home we're renting in Lacey, WA. That way, we shouldn't have to spend more than 7-8 hours on the road on any given day. The highlights of the trip will be a visit to Notre Dame and Mt. Rushmore. I contacted Notre Dame and told them who I was, that I'm a life-long fan and it's been a dream of mine to see the football stadium from the inside. They've arranged a private tour of the Stadium and the rest of campus for us. I can't wait for that. We'll also stop anywhere else that looks interesting and enjoy the trip as much as we can.

Thank you all for supporting me with your prayer and in other ways during my ministry to 91st here at FT Drum and in Iraq. Special thanks goes out to the people of Grace Fellowship Evangelical Free Church, Stevensburg Baptist Church, and Calvary Chapel Old Bridge. Your support has helped to reach many Soldiers with the Gospel over the last two years. It is my prayer and hope that you will continue to support us as we continue to serve God and Country.

So, for the final time...Guardian Angel Out.

Another Exciting Month

2010-03-27T09:53:00.001-05:00

I just realized when i looked at my last post that I hadn't yet blogged about the results of our ultrasound. So, if you're not on Facebook and this is the only way you follow me, you don't know yet. We're having another girl and we're very excited. I try not to post names in this forum because it pretty easy for anyone to get on here, but we have one picked out and we're very excited. My wife is particularly excited to decorate everything in girl themes. We got rid of all our old baby stuff because we thought we were done with that faze. It was all neutral Winnie the Pooh stuff so we could use it for either gender. This time, that isn't a concern, so she is very happy to be getting some type of lady bug design with pinks and all that other girl stuff.

Ministry wise, this has also been an exciting month. My counseling load is through the roof right now. I know many people would consider that bad, but I enjoy that part of the ministry for the most part. I've also developed a class on ethical decision making with several interactive dilemmas. I've slowly been teaching that to all of my companies and it's been very well received. Last week I had the opportunity to attend one of my endorser's chaplain development conferences at Southern Seminary in Louisville, KY. The theme was "taking care of your soul." It focused a lot on spiritual formation and was a very refreshing time. I'm trying to take some of what was presented and put it into a format that i can give to my Soldiers. I also got the chance to share the gospel with a high school senior during my plane ride back. That may have been more refreshing than anything else I did on my trip. Finally, on the ministry side of things, I've been asked to preach at our main post chapel on Easter Sunday. I'm not sure why I was asked, but I'm honored and excited for the opportunity to preach the gospel on the day we celebrate the resurrection.

In other news, we just celebrated my younger daughter's 5th birthday. It was a great time and I'm so grateful that we get do things like this together this year.

That's probably enough for now.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Next Stop...Fort Lewis, WA

2010-02-27T21:15:00.001-05:00

I guess I need to set an alarm or something to remind me to update my blog. This was really so much easier to remember while I was in Iraq and I'm not sure why that is.

Anyway, the biggest news is that we now know for sure where we'll be heading next. I have orders for Madigan Army Medical center at Fort Lewis, WA and we'll be heading there in late May. This means we get to drive all the way across the country, with three kids, while my wife is 32 weeks pregnant. I'll be doing a CPE (Clinical Pastoral Education) residency at the hospital and working on my DMIN for a year to qualify me to do a 3 year utilization tour as an Army hospital chaplain. So, it's likely we'll move again in June 2011. This assignment is a real answer to prayer as I've felt God leading me in this direction ever since we started to investigate the chaplaincy. Please pray for us as we close out our time in ministry with the 91st at Fort Drum and look forward to this new ministry opportunity.

This past month has been a good month of ministry. We welcomed one of our MP companies home from Iraq. Last weekend, I got to take them to Lake Placid for the Weekend to do some relationship training. Otherwise, it's been fairly normal, with lots of counseling as usual, which I've come to realize is one of my favorite things to do.

My family has had a great month too. We got to go down to see my parents over presidents day weekend and then my wife and kids went down to her parents for the rest of winter break. We wanted to make sure we got down to NJ and VA one last time before the move. Everyone had a great time, but it's nice to get back to our normal routines as well. My wife has an ultrasound this coming THU, so we should know the gender of our fourth child by this time next week. For the first time ever, we're not positive on names yet, so knowing if it's a boy or a girl will be a big help.

That's all for now.

- Guardian Angel Out -

Great Christmas and a good start to the New Year

2010-01-24T15:36:00.001-05:00

We had a great Christmas. It started with my parents visit the week before. The kids enjoyed spending several days with them and celebrating my dad's 55th birthday. Then we celebrated Christmas day with just the 5 of us. It was really nice to spend that day together after being so far apart last year. The day after Christmas, we went to Six Flags Great Escape Lodge in Lake George, NY. It's a great place that has a huge indoor water park and activities with looney toons characters. After a couple of days there, we came home and were joined by my wife's parents. The kid's were quite happy to participate in a third round of gifts. After a several days of fun with, they left as well and we enjoyed a quiet new years.

After New Years, my unit got back to business as usual. Everyone returned from block leave and we started to work normal Army schedules again. It was a busy week due to our Battalion Change of Command. Our Battalion Commander of almost three years stepped down and our new commander took command. This meant a week of "mandatory fun" stuff like Hail and Farewells and a big ceremony. it has also meant a big change in the staff as many officers and NCOs move on to new jobs and often new posts.

Last weekend we were looking for something to do over our 4 day (the Army adds a day to most 3 day weekends) holiday. We ended up spending one night down in Syracuse at an Embassy Suites and then going to the Science Center in the morning. We had a great time, although I think the kids would have been just as happy to stay at any hotel with a pool.

The past couple of weeks have been fairly typical of life back in Garrison. It might not be as busy as deployment, but it often feels busier because while deployed you don't really concern yourself with getting home at a decent hour. As always, the ministry is a joy and very rewarding. Rarely does a day go by where I don't feel like I made at least some impact on a Soldier's life. Sometimes, it just being a safe listening ear for a Soldier to vent. Other times, I have the privilege of sharing the gospel or helping someone make an important decision. I'm really thankful that I get to work in a job that brings me joy.

Next week, I get preach at the Chapel service we attend. I'm looking forward to it and having a great time preparing. That's pretty much all for now.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Home for the Holidays

2009-12-17T21:46:00.001-05:00

After nearly 2 months, I can say I really feel like I'm home. I mean to say that I feel like I'm out of the reunion/re-integration phase and back into the normal routine of being a husband, dad and chaplain in garrison.

We had a wonderful Thanksgiving visiting my family in NJ. I got to go see my high school rivalry football game and the Braves won big! We had a nice dinner with family I haven't seen in over a year and a spend a day at the Jersey Shore. I also got to go to old my old church and preach that Sunday. One of those things I've come to cherish is the lasting relationships I have with so many people from Grace Fellowship. The Army may take us many places in the years to come, but I believe Grace Fellowship will be our church home for a long, long time.

I've been enjoying doing normal husband and dad stuff. I take my oldest daughter to the bus stop on most mornings. I come home for lunch and enjoy that time with my wife and two younger children if they're not at pre-school. I've even been taking my oldest to ballet most weeks. Even simple things like making dinner and doing dishes are enjoyable in a strange way. It's hard to explain, but being away for so long gave me a different appreciation for the "routine." I don't think it's a greater appreciation, just different.

Ministry has been enjoyable as well. A battalion chaplain's ministry doesn't change that much regardless of the location. I'm counseling, visiting and going to meetings just like always. Instead of getting in an MRAP, HMMV or Blackhawk to visit Soldiers though, now I just get in my car and drive across post. Dealing with family members changes the dynamic a bit, but I look at it as a positive. I haven't started preaching in chapel again yet, but I expect to next month.

We'll also find out our next assignment at the end of JAN or beginning of FEB. I've already been selected for CPE (Clinical Pastoral Education). That means I'll spend a year at one of four locations, training to be an army hospital chaplain and working on a DMIN (Doctor of Ministry) degree. After that, I'll spend three years working at some type of medical facility or unit. I'm really excited about this opportunity to bring the hope of Jesus to wounded and sick Soldiers and trust God will send us to the right location.

We're looking forward to Christmas. Since we've had children, we stay home for Christmas. Most years, we have company from one side or the other, but this year it will just be the five of us for Christmas Eve and Morning. While it will probably seem a bit quiet, it will also probably be nice after having Christmas via skype last year. We're then going to take the kids to one of those hotels with an indoor water park for two nights. That should be a lot fun for all of us. We're looking forward to seeing my parents and my wife's parents just before and after the holiday as well. It should all make for a very Merry Christmas.

Finally, this will be our last Christmas as a family of 5! That's because we'll be a family of six sometime around the end of July 2010! While we were a bit surprised by this new addition, it is indeed a very happy surprise!

Merry Christmas!

-Guardian Angel Out-

Home

2009-11-08T15:53:00.001-05:00

Tomorrow will ark 3 weeks since I returned home. It's impossible to express the feeling that accompany this time of my life with the written word. I'm also not sure I really want to share that much. I can say it has been full of joy and happiness. There are still hard moments like the slightly worried look on the faces of my children when I leave the house in uniform. All in all, though, the transition has been smooth and a very sweet time for us.

The timeline has gone as expected. After our unit finished the RIP/TOA (relief in place/transition of authority) with our replacements, we sat around for a couple of more days in Iraq. This was mostly a time of doing nothing and while relaxing, it was also very boring. We then flew down to Kuwait and spent about 48 hours there before going through the customs process and getting on the most beautiful 747 I've ever seen. After the long fight home, we arrived at Wheeler-Sack airfield on FT Drum. We had to wait around for another 3 hours before going to the gym for the welcome home ceremony. After the ceremony, we were released for about 72 hours. There are some great pictures of our family's reunion on my wife's blog. Since then we've had mostly 4 day weekends and half day schedules. I also led our Strong Bonds Reintegration retreat this past week at Lake Placid.

Thank you for your prayers during this difficult year. I'd also covet your prayers for the next couple of months as we continue the reintegration process. Bob Dole said, "Coming home from war is longer than any plane ride." This is true in many ways and it makes for an especially dangerous time for Soldiers.

-Guardian Angel Out-

A Very Good Sunday

2009-10-12T14:45:00.001-05:00

Yesterday was one of those days I don't want to forget, so I thought I'd blog about it. As most of you know, my time here in Iraq is almost finished. Yesterday was the last time I would preach at the chapel service where I have preached since our unit moved back in FEB. There was really never any question in my mind of what I would preach for a final message. I preached a salvation message using Romans 6:23 as my text. There are times when I'm preaching that I swear I can physically feel God's presence. I'm sure there are those out there that would tell me it's just adrenaline or something other totally natural thing. All I can say is I've done enough in my life to know what all those things feel like and this is something altogether different.

While I share the gospel and give invitations often in chapel services, there is rarely a response. I'm convinced this is because most of the chapel services are filled with believers (or at least those who think they are believers) on most occasions. Consequently, I've seen more Soldiers come to trust Jesus as their savior through my counseling ministry than anywhere else. Regardless of those results, I still believe there is something powerful about the proclamation of the gospel in a preaching setting.

Yesterday, after I gave the invitation and was waiting at the front of the chapel, something told me there was someone there who wanted to respond. At one of the pauses in the lyrics, I encouraged a response again. Then it happened. A Soldier made her way down the aisle, tears streaming down her face. We prayed right there at the front of the chapel while the rest of the Soldiers continued to sing "Mighty to Save." I've had the awesome privilege of hearing people pray for salvation on many occasions and I can tell you this was a very sweet and sincere prayer.

The best part about this is I know it had nothing to do with me. God did all the work and deserves all the honor, glory and praise. I am honored to be a witness of what He has done.

In the end, this is why I'm a chaplain. I believe Soldiers need to hear the message of salvation and I believe that God has called me to proclaim that message. Praise God for another United States Army Soldier who will spend forever with Him!

Some Thoughts

2009-10-06T13:14:00.001-05:00

As my time here inches ever closer to the end, I've found myself thoughtful of some of the ways I've changed. I think a lot of it is about the way I now view certain words or ideas. I went to a memorial ceremony today for a Soldier I never knew. I don't even know anyone in his unit. None of that matters though. Before I came here, a Soldiers death was sad. Now it's like losing a family member. I think my idea of family has been altered. Before, I broke my family down into a couple of categories. My immediate family was one. My extended family was another. My close friends were a third. And the family of believers was my final category. Coming here is like being born into another family, a family of Soldiers. It's something I'll never take for granted.

A word I will never use the same way again is hero. Athletes are not heroic. Actors are not heroic. Musicians are not heroic. Heroism, to me, is reserved for those who put their lives on the line for the benefit of others. I'm not saying you have to be a Soldier to be heroic. All I'm saying is that playing a game or, preforming on the stage or singing a song doesn't make you a hero. Giving a bunch of money to a cause or motivating people to do goo doesn't make you a hero. My heroes will probably never attain any fame, but in my opinion, they are the ones who allow others to attain that fame.

I think my idea of commitment has changed too. People think they're committed to all kinds of things like their marriage, their morals, their ethics, their values and their faith. Commitment has nothing to do with an initial decision. People make decisions to 'commit' themselves to stuff all the time. That doesn't mean a thing. Commitment is about seeing those things through in the absolute toughest of circumstances. I think I'm going to have a hard time hearing someone tell me they committed to something without saying, "prove it" in the future.

I could go on and on, but I'll end with one last word: Love. I thought I knew what it meant to love before this year. I found out that being separated from those you love for a long period of time teaches you more about what it means than can ever be learned by many years together. I'm not saying that everyone should experience this. All I'm saying is that my perspective has been broadened considerably by experiencing the pain that can only come from not being with the ones you love.

So, you may be wondering where is all the spiritual insight in this. I don't think I've learned any great theological truth this year. Instead, I really believe God has worked on me as a pastor. Family, heroes, commitment and love all have a huge impact on the daily lives of people. Whether your a believer or not, all these things affect you. I believe God has used this year to teach me about these things so I can better serve him by reaching people.

I'm sure I'll have a lot more to say as I continue to reflect on this year, but for now...

-Guardian Angel Out-

VERY, VERY GOOD NEWS

2009-10-02T09:03:00.001-05:00

I haven't written much of anything in here lately, because there hasn't been much to write about. Ministry has continued to go well as we get ready to leave. In some ways it's sad to see the end, but in many, many more ways it's wonderful. I turned 31 last week which was wierd here, because it was just like any other Friday. Lot's of people remembered though, so that was nice. Anyway, I get on with the good news.

In the span of less than 24 hours two really good things happened. Yesterday, I found out that I have been selected for Clinical Pastoral Education (CPE). This is traning to to be a hospital chaplain. I've wanted this since I found out about the program which was very shortly after I felt called to the chaplaincy. What it means is that in the summer of 2010, I'll start a year of classes and residency at one of the Army's 4 big medical centers. When that's complete, I'll do a follow on assignment of 3 years as a Chaplain in a medical center, hospital, combat support hospital or combat stress clinic. This was very exciting news, because I realy believe there are no Soldiers in the army who need chaplains more than the wounded, sick and those who care for them.

The other piece of good news is that my replacement arrived early this morning. He seems like a really great chaplain and we come from very similiar faith groups, so that makes the transition even easier. This means it won't be long at all till I get to come home and be with my family again.

All of this makes for a very, very happy chaplain.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Never forget

2009-09-11T15:16:00.001-05:00

I know not everyone is like me, but 9-11 still feels fresh to me. I think about it a lot, not just on the anniversaries. I didn't personally know anyone who died that day, although a significant number were residents of my home town. I wasn't physically close either, since I was still down in SC for school. The only thing I can come up with is that I've always felt like NY was my city. Even though I grew up about an hour away, I root for NY sports teams, I watched NY local news growing up and a lot of my classmates were transplants from NY. I still hate the sight of the skyline without the towers. The first time I remember seeing them was from my grandfather's boat. I still can't believe they're gone. Today, I read a quote from President Bush in the Combat Update Brief and I led the BN in a short ceremony at the time of the first attack. It doesn't seem like enough though. I don't think we can really do "enough" to honor those who died that day. There is always more to be done. I pray we have the resolve to keep doing it.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Rest, Relaxation and Return

2009-08-29T03:24:00.001-05:00

Well, I've been back for a week and I figured it's about time to post about my leave and return to Iraq. Leave here all starts with the long process of getting home. I had to go down to the terminal here 4 times over a 3 day stretch to get a flight down to Kuwait. Then I was in Kuwait for about 20 hours before the flight home started. Even though it took so long to get to that point, I was pretty content by then. It take about another 24 hours to actually get home form there. Touching down in Atlanta was pretty surreal. I kept thinking everything looked so green as we were landing. The real excitement though, was flying into Syracuse. I got off the plane there and while I was walking down to security, I saw my family. It felt so good to have them all in my arms again.

I'm not going to give too many details of our 15 days together. We spent most of the time at home in FT Drum, just relaxing. We did simple things as a family like going to the park, watching movies together and going out to eat. My wife and I also got a baby sitter several times and enjoyed going out, just the two of us. My parents, sister and niece came up for a couple of nights. We visited nearby Alexandria Bay with them and enjoyed a trip to Boldt Castle. It was a very sweet time and I believe God really blessed it, because I felt like I could really live in those moments and not worry about coming back here. I had such a good time spending time with my children. I think they're favorite time is something the call "break time on Daddy." This consists mostly of wrestling with, abusing and riding on me. I also loved the time I got to spend with my wife. There is no one I'd rather spend my time with and it was amazing just to be in the same room with her again.

The goodbye was, of course hard, but knowing we don't have nearly as much time apart to endure this time made it a bit easier. It took another three days to get back and about a week to adjust my sleep back to normal again. I miss my my family a lot again, but it has been good to see all my Soldiers too. I also finally moved into a new office that is much more conducive to counseling, but still right at the Battalion. Even though, I'll only be able to take advantage of it for a couple of months, at least the next chaplain will be all set up.

That's all for now.

-Guardian Angel Out-

So Close

2009-07-26T11:26:00.001-05:00

The past couple of weeks have been good. Ministry continues to be fruitful as many come for counseling and get to hear the Word as a result. I've also preached the past two Sundays and today i was marveling at the amazing cross section of people as I spoke. Almost every rank from PVT to SGT To SGM to CPT to COl was present. There were people from all walks of life and cultures, even to include a local national and a few Ugandans. Where else could possibly have the opportunity to preach to such a diverse cross-section of people?

Last week we had a UMT conference at Freedom Rest. This was a good time of training, encouragement and relaxation. We spent each day from about 0900-1430 training on subjects including traumatic event management, suicide prevention, spiritual resiliency, self care for the caregiver and ministering to adult survivors of sexual abuse. Most of the training was top notch and very relevant. We also had a lot of informal time together around the table. Talking with the two senior chaplains was a great encouragement for me. Finally, I spent about 3 hours each day doing nothing but sitting by the pool and reading fiction. I'd get in to cool off when I got hot and then went back to reading. Of course, I had to jump off the high dive once too. There's video of it floating around somewhere and if I get my hands on it, I'll post it here.

My R&R is right around the corner. By the tie I get home, it will have been 9 months since I left. I'm so excited to see my beautiful wife and my children. I'm sure it will be a great time, even if 2 weeks is way too short after 9 months. I also realized today that this time will be a great test of my faith. I started to worry about something happening to my Soldiers while I'm gone today and then it struck me. Will I practice what I preach. I share Phil 4:6-8 with Soldiers all the time. If I really believe it, I'll trust God with their well being and experience his peace as i think on he things He would have me think about. Please pray that I'll have the faith to do so. I can already tell it will be a struggle.

I don't plan on blogging again before I leave or while I'm on leave, so I doubt there will be anything new on here until late August.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Memory Triggers

2009-07-12T05:05:00.002-05:00

I'm sure everyone experiences the effects of memory triggers in some way or another. There are certain thing that trigger specific memories and sometimes they are so powerful that it is almost as if you are living back in that memory. One of those things for me is the smell of a cool fall morning. It almost instantly transports me back to the football fields of my youth. Sometimes I could swear I can almost hear the crack of pads and all the other wonderful football sounds. Fireworks take me back to the night i proposed to my wife. I can feel the same nervous excitement. The closing theme from Star Wars Episode IV brings me back to my wedding and the absolute joy of that day.

Today I experienced a new one. I share my chapel service with another Battalion Chaplain and we take turns running the service each week. This was his Sunday, so he preaches and sets up the worship videos. Anyway, the second song this week was You Are Holy.

I started singing it and all of sudden I was back at the first year of missions camp when I was a youth pastor. When i closed my eyes, I could see our little meeting room. It was a good memory that brought to mind many of the youth who have made such a big impact on my life. I can't believe 2 of the musicians from that year are married and all the rest of the youth are graduated. Has it really been 5 years?

Anyway, it made me stop and consider something. What is it going to be that reminds me of this year in Iraq? Is it going to be something that reminds me of good times here or will it be something that brings up the things I'd rather forget. While I haven't been through the combat situations many others have (yet...praise God), I've realized the first thing I think of when I hear a loud boom is rockets/mortars and where is the closest bunker. In the end, I know God won't give me more than I can handle, but I still wonder how much that will be.

I get to go home for my 15 days of R&R with my family in less than 20 days! I really can't imagine anything more beautiful than seeing my wife and children when I get off the plane in Syracuse. 9 months is a long time.

-Guardian Angel Out-

More Dust

2009-06-28T04:01:00.001-05:00

Today is the second time in the last couple of weeks that we've had a really bad dust storm. It gets everywhere, reduces visibility and makes breathing a less than pleasant experience. The only plus side is that it's cooler than normal.

Ministry here continues to go well. I had a number of Soldiers come for counseling this week. Their issues are all different, but it always amazes me how the answers almost always lead back to Jesus. We have more of our Soldiers co-located with us again which is nice for me. I enjoy being able to take a two minute walk to see Soldiers I used to have to spend an hour in an MRAP to visit.

The are less than 5 weeks left before I go on R&R. I can't wait to see my wife and children, so of course the time seems to be dragging as we get closer and closer to that day.

Please continue to pray for all of us.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Long Trips

2009-06-20T07:41:00.001-05:00

This week we visited two of our companies that are quite a distance from us. In the past we've done so by helicopter, but we often seem to get stranded when the weather turns bad. This time, it was decided we would go by ground movement, so we couldn't get stuck. Even in the most comfortable of our vehicles, it wasn't a particuallary pleasant trip, but we stayed safe which is always the most important part. Both trips went well. I got to talk with a bunch of my Soldiers who I don't get to see very often. One of the companies is from FT Drum, so I especially enjoyed my time with them.

The heat has also picked up to a degree I really never thought was possible. You hear about how hot it is here, but you really can't understand it until you experience it. There is nothing like having to change a t-shirt just because you were walking around outside for a couple of hours and now it's soaking wet.

We also experienced the worst dust storm I've seen yet. It was so bad that the rocks were a completely different color by morning when it settled. MY AC also pulled it all into my room, so everything had a nice coating.

The environment here really, really makes me appreciate home. Speaking of home, I officially got my leave dates this week too. I can't say exactly when I'm traveling on here, but I should be home for most of the 1st two weeks in August. It's 15 days either way, but if weather delays me, my time home will stretch into the third week. I'm really, really looking forward to that!

Finally, I want to wish my dad a happy father's day. I love you and I miss you. Thanks for being such a great father.

-Guardian Angel Out-

10 Years!

2009-06-12T00:02:00.002-05:00

My wife and I are celebrating 10 years of marriage today! God has truly blessed me with a woman who is more wonderful than anything I could have ever imagined. She is first and foremost a godly woman. She is absolutely beautiful. She is smart. She is compassionate. She is kind. She has a great sense of humor. She is so supportive of me. She is a fantastic mother. For all these reasons and many more, I love her with all my heart.

If someone had told me everything we would have been through in the past ten years on our wedding day, I would have never believed it. While we’ve had some trying times, just like any other family, God has blessed our marriage greatly. Standing there on that day, watching her come down that aisle, I would have never thought I could love her more than I did at that moment. I know love is a hard thing to quantify, but my love for her is so, so much stronger today.

So, to my beautiful wife:

Happy 10th anniversary! I love you and look forward to celebrating many, many more.

quick update

2009-06-07T06:37:00.003-05:00

I don't have much to say right now, but some people seem to get worried when i don't write on here. So far, June has been much calmer for me than May. Ministry is still happening, but the counseling has gone back to a more resonable pace and nothing crazy has happened that affects me very much. I don't know what else to say right now. I'm looking forward to R&R in less than 2 months and finishing the deployment in less than 5 months. As always, I miss my wife and children. The silliest things remind me of that all the time. There was a scene in a movie we watched last night where the main character sees a man picking his kid up from school. The scene might have been 2 seonds long, but it got to me. I don't know if that makes sense or not, but it's a small glimpse into how hard this is for all of us who have to leave our families behind. Seeing as yesterday was the anniversaty of D-Day, I have no idea how those guys did for years on end, often without even a single letter. Those Soldiers deserve all our gratitude and respect. That's all for now.

-Guardian Angel Out-

SME

2009-05-27T16:36:00.001-05:00

SME stands for Subject Matter Expert. Supposedly, as a Chaplain, I'm an SMA on memorial ceremonies. Someone mentioned that this week as we were preparing for one. It caused me to pause for a moment. It's not the first time I've heard it, but for some reason it struck me differently this time. I felt like someone was telling me I was the SME on death. That's not really a pleasant thought. Regardless if the fact that i believe there is much more to life than the years we spend in these bodies, death is always sad.

After thinking about this for awhile, i realized that I'm not the SME on death. I'm an SME on honoring those who have died. I like that a lot more. So, I spent this memorial day preparing to just that for an interpreter that served his country and ours with honor for almost 6 years.

Please pray the 91st doesn't have to perform another one of these.

All in all, we have a lot to praise God for after the week we had. It could have been much, much worse.

"If one part suffers, all the parts suffer. If one part is honored, all the parts rejoice."

-Guardian Angel Out-

May madness

2009-05-18T00:48:00.001-05:00

So, I know it's been awhile. I wrote a post I never published and didn't realize from 6 MAY, so I put that first and then write some more:

While it is still more than 5 months away, we've been preparing for our re-deployment lately. That's just the way the Army does things. We usea very thorough process called the MDMP (Military Decision MakingProcess). While tedious at times, it forces our staff to examine a decision from every possible angle and recommend the best COA (course of action) to the commander. While the process is very time consuming and often uninteresting, I believe it is one of the best ways to make an important decision that affects the lives of so many people. In fact, I think it could even be a useful tool for churches trying to make big
decisions. Of course, I would add a lot of prayer, fasting and seeking God's will through His word. Anyway, my part in the process is relatively small. In fact, not all chaplains are asked to take part, so I take it as a good sign that the Senior Leaders of our Battalion value my input.

We have also been putting together some briefs and products for the commander of the battalion who will take our place when we leave. I have to share things like major challenges, responsibilities and my top ten lessons learned. I can't share a lot of the particulars, because it's all classified, but I can share my top one.

Be flexible...everything can and will chang.
Besides a calling from God, there is no more important quality for a chaplain to have than flexibility. I can't tell you how many times my plans have changed for any number of reasons. Most of the time, I can see God's purpose behind the change when I look back. If you can't deal with your plans getting tossed at the last moment, you
will not fare well as a chaplain deployed to a combat zone.
Other than that, counseling has picked up again quite a bit lately. I like to respect their privacy, so I can't be specific about this, but I've had the opportunity to share the gospel with hurting Soldiers on so many occasions. Many are on the way to faith in Jesus and some have recently arrived. While I know it's nothing I do, it's always encouraging to see a Soldier come to faith. Pray that those struggling
with the decision would believe.

NOW, AS OF 18 MAY:

The month of may has continued as I described it 12 days ago. We had our visit from the incoming commander and it went well. i was glad for the time I got to spend with him. I also have begun to correspond with my counterpart from that BN. He asked me all the same questions i asked my predecessor when I first talked with him a year ago. Of course the answers have changed because a lot has changed since then. Anyway, I'm happy to know that we seem to be in line with each other on beliefs and practices, so that should offer consistency to the Soldiers of the companies he will iinherit.

Counseling continues to be heavier. Issues are all over the map. Name the issue and I've probably encountered it. The cool thing is that I've yet to talk with someone who has an issue not addressed by scripture. I don't neccessarily always give them a direct quote, but whenever I ask to, they are usually very willing to hear it. There are also a great deal of Soldiers who just want to vent. They don't really want help with thier problems they just want to to tell them to someone who will not tell everyone else. Most of these are Soldiers with genuine issues, bet there are a few whiners out there.

Remember how I said flexability is the key. We've had a huge trial of our patience recentlyhuge exercise in patience recently. We were trying to see 3 of our companies that we have to fly to this weekend. Wel, after we got to our first location, the next flight got cancelled. We ended up getting stuck at that same place for 4 days and it looks like we'll finally be getting back home today. In a lot of ways this is frustrationg, but I try to trust that God wanted me here longer for some reason.

In other news, my oldest daughter turned 7 last week. I is unbelievable how fast the years go by as a parent. I often still think of her as that baby who would fall asleep on my chest as I rocked her in my favorite chair. I miss those days, but I love how she is now too. She is so smart, sensative and funny. Can you tell I'm a proud father?

There are no words for how much I miss my wife and children. At least there are less than 2 and 1/2 months left till I get to spend my 2 weeks with them.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Productive

2009-04-30T06:52:00.001-05:00

My assistant made the comment to me today that, it's been a productive week. We talked about this for a bit. Sometimes, it's really hard to quantify what I do. How do you evaluate ministry of presence. While I'm more and more convinced it is probably the most important part of my job, it's had to put a number on it. Even counseling can be like this. It's so easy to judge the effectiveness of your counseling based on # of appointments, but that doesn't really make sense. Counseling depends on the number of issues Soldiers have. I could also judge based on whether or not a Soldier "gets better." That really isn't it either. A lot of times that's out of my hands. I try to evaluate it based on whether or not I allowed God to use me in the situation and fully depended on Him. If I do that, I feel like I'm succesfull.

Anyway, we've been busy. There's been a little bit of everything. I given briefings, both planned and impromptu. I've spent a lot of time counseling. I've advised leadership on some problems. I've preached and taught the Word. I've spent some time just being with Soldiers.

That's really all there is to say. If you'd like to see some new photos, check out my facebook profile.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Less than 6 Months to go!!

2009-04-24T00:01:00.002-05:00

If everything goes according to plan this deployment will be over in just a little less than 6 months.

In some ways it's gone fast. The weeks go fast. I'm usually surprised each week when we get to Sunday. I guess that's because I view my ministry schedule as weekly and I'm fairly busy in that regard. I usually have anywhere from 2-3 services a week at 2-3 different locations. I also have a Bible study on Sunday nights. So, that's a lot of prep time to keep my mind occupied even when counseling is slow. When counseling is slow and I finish my prep, there is always MBWA (ministry by walking around). It never cease to amaze me how much i accomplish just by walking around, having casual conversations with Soldiers.

The days, however seem slow. I think I view the days as time away from my wife and children. It feels like I've been gone for a lot longer than it's actually been. My heart aches to be reunited with my wife. I think i really understand the whole, "it's not good for man to be alone" thing now. It has worn on me physically, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually to be separated from my bride for so long. It's also not easy to see and hear of my kids growing up in pictures, video and the stories other tell me. Sometimes I feel like they are changing so fast I'll hardly recognize them when this is over. All of that is felt day after day and it doesn't get easier.

The hours can be really, really fast. There are deadlines for everything here. Whether self imposed of dictated by others, it's a way of life. Sometimes, I feel like I'm constantly racing the clock. I'm either trying to finish up some slide or paperwork, or going to a mission brief, or even trying to to make it to the dining facility before it closes. As crazy as it can seem, this is a good thing. The hours fly right by when you're always trying to meet some deadline.

Finally, the months are slow. I guess that's mostly due to waiting for it to be a particular month. I find myself completely focused on August and October. In August I get to be away from here for about 3 weeks and at home for about 15 days. In October, this deployment ends. April feels a long way from August and October. It really doesn't help much either to think about how far it was in February or December. I really don't think I'll feel like it's close until July.

So, in the end, I try as hard as I can to focus on the hours and weeks. That helps, but at the same time, I know that I've only been able to endure this because of my relationship with the Lord. What I described is no different for me than it is for most Soldiers. I really can't imagine it without God. I think, that more than anything motivates me to share Him with Soldiers. It makes me see the reason behind all the hard stuff. Could we really relate to Jesus, unless he went through what we go through? Can anyone really reach a Soldier unless they've gone through what Soldiers endure and are willing to do it again and again? In my experience, it's not really possible to reach a Soldier without becoming one. I think I knew this before deployment, but it's so much more real to me now.

Oh yeah, it's hot here now. 100 degrees in April is wrong in so many ways!

-Guardian Angel Out-

It's hard not to hate

2009-04-16T00:36:00.002-05:00

I know I'm called to love my enemies, but that's an easy thing to talk about when the worst you've ever experienced is a verbal, financial, or pschological attack. We lost a Soldier from one of our organic units this week. They aren't under our Battalion in theatre, but that doesn't really matter. We still went to the hospital and we have Soldiers who knew this hero well. I know one of the wounded very well. How do you not hate an enemy who kills just for the purpose of killing? It was so easy to say trite things like, "these people need Jesus just as much as any one else," before I experienced what they do first hand. I definitely get Jonah a whole lot more now. I'm thankful that I can focus on caring for my Soldiers right now.

Don't worry about me. I'm fine. I take these things to God and trust he will work them out in me.

Pray for the 3 other Soldiers who survived the attack. Pray for the family left behind. Pray for the many Soldiers in 3 different companies that have been affected by this act of cowardice. Pray that the enemy would be brought to justice.

That's all I'm ever going to say about this, so please don't ask for anything more.

As always, I miss my beautiful wife and my children.

-Guardian Angel Out-

The little things

2009-04-09T05:36:00.003-05:00

I was recently talking with a Soldier who was having a hard time. As we talked about solutions to different issues, everything seemed so far off. All the solutions were things like getting out of Iraq, going to a different unit, getting out of the army. I asked, "what little everyday thing do you look forward to?" The look I got back made me wonder if i had just grown 3 new heads. I then started to list off some of the little things I look forward to in the short term.

- I look forward to talking with or IMing my wife almost every day. Most of the time, it's the highlight of my day.
- I look forward to my daily time in the Word and prayer
- I look forward to talking with Soldiers in whatever setting
- I look forward to taking a little time to relax at the end of the day by watching some of a movie or reading
- I look forward to going to the mail room, because sometimes there is something great waiting for me there.
- I look forward to desert. I have a couple of cookies while I relax at the end of the day. I have to eat right all day to do that, so i look forward to it.
- I look forward to Saturdays because I take that day off from eating right and basically pig out. I know that sounds funny, but if I don't watch what I eat, I put weight on pretty easily.
- I look forward to preaching/teaching the 2-3 times a week that I get to do that.

After that I explained that we need find little things to enjoy to help us get to those bigger things. The Soldier understood and we talked for awhile longer. I eventually shared the gospel and we talked about that too. I don't know for sure if this Soldier will ever come to faith in Jesus, but I trust that it's in God's hands.

Anyway, I thought it would be interesting to list out all those things here.

-Guardian Angel Out-

2 more weeks closer to...

2009-03-30T12:33:00.002-05:00

...so many things.

Since I've last blogged, I'm 2 more weeks closer to...

holding my beautiful, amazing wife in my arms
hugging my kids
seeing the beauty of the USA (we seriously live in an awesome country)
sitting in my chair
sleeping in my bed
driving my car
seeing the rest of my family and friends
and so much more.

Don't get me wrong. I know I'm where I'm supposed to be and I love my ministry, but I miss home and it's always on my mind. I don't know a Soldier who deosn't feel the same.

I think the highlight of my last two weeks was a small service I had at a little COP where one of my companies lives. They don't have a chaplain there, so my semi regular weekly visits are pretty much the only time they see a chaplain. Leading those 10 Soldiers in worship, singing together, preaching a gospel message, praying specifically for thier needs and serving them communion was one of those experiences that I wouldn't trade for anything. It always amazes me how something so simple can mean so much.

The hardest time of the past two weeks was the same day. My younger daughter turned 4 and I missed being there to celebrate with her. I can never get that back and I hate that. I'm not sure where the good is in missing those times, but I trust Gid will use even those things. Maybe it's to give me the ability to emphathize with others going through the same thing. Hmmmm....

That's all for now.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Flying Around

2009-03-15T05:38:00.002-05:00

This week was fairly eventful. On TUE, I got to fly to one of our units in the south and visit them for a bit. On WED, it was another ride on a blackhawk to see our other unit in the south. Then on THU we flew back "home." Iraq look a little different from the air. There are actually a lot of farms outside the city. I'm not sure what they actually grow, but it's green, There also appear to be a lot of green houses. There's really not much more to say. My week was pretty normal for deploymesnt. I did things like counseling, MBWA (ministry by walking around) and sermon prep. My sermon went well this morning. I think our service is growing too. It felt more full in the chapel today.

I miss my wife and kids...a lot.

-Guardian Angel Out-

ramblings

2009-03-07T06:48:00.002-05:00

It's hard to know what to write on here sometimes. My weeks often seem fairly mundane to me. I guess that's because I'm used to them now. Having a Truamatic Event Management sessions with a squad of Soldiers who were struck by an EFP doesn't seem out of the ordinary to me any more. Covering down on another Caplain's Soldiers while he travels to go see other of his Soldiers who just experienced the loss of fellow warrior is just another day. Going with a company commander to tell a Soldier his father died unexpectantly is almost routine. I've actually lost count of how many times I've travelled outside the wire to see my Soldiers at thier various locations. Sometimes I wonder if feeling like this is normal is wrong. I'm convinced, however, that God put me here because I can deal with these kind of things day in an day out without getting overwhelmed. The only thing that never goes away and I never get used to is being seperated from my family. I can't wait to see them again. The seperation is, almost always, like a dull throbing pain. I really don't know how those who don't have a relationship with God deal with that pain.

Please pray for safety. We've had 2 deaths in the Brigade in the last 2 weeks and there could have been more. None of these Soldiers were in my TF, but it has been a grim reminder of how dangerous things still are here. These heros put their lives on the line every day for those who can't stand up for themselves. Pray that they would come to know the One who did that for them as well. Pray that I would be a faithful witness of His sacrifice for them. These brave men and women who wear the uniform of our military make up less than 1% of our population. The magnitude of what they do every day is more than many will accomplish in a lifetime. Please don't forget to uphold them in prayer.

-Guardian Angel Out-

travels, wrt and preaching

2009-02-22T16:12:00.000-05:00

It was another busy week of ministry here in Iraq. I started of my week by traveling to a COP to visit one of our units. I spent 2 nights there, counseled some Soldiers and attended a WED night Bible Study. It was a good visit with a unit I particularly enjoy. They tend to be the most fun to travel with because they are very amusing to listen to over the radio. Both me and my assistant were forced to sing for them on our first ride along. If you know how horribly I sing, I'm sure you feel sorry for them. The rooms there are pretty hard core. They are basically 6 1/2' x 7' x 7' ply wood boxes. A bed and built in desk barely fit. There are nails on the walls to hang up clothes. I'm pretty sure the average prison cell is larger. In spite of that and the less than desirable food situation, these Soldiers don't complain much at all. Anyway, it was a good visit.

I came back to our Camp for WRT train the trainer. WRT is a new program developed by a Combat Stress officer. It stands for Warrior Resilience Training and it's a pretty good program, at least in my opinion. The idea is to give Soldiers some tools, to not only survive deployment, but also grow as a result of deployment. It promotes Post Traumatic Growth which is actually 4 times as likely to occur than PTSD. Anyway, I brought in an NCO from each of our companies and we were all trained by the officer who developed the training.

Today, I preached at a Sunday morning service for the first time since November 2007. For some reason or another, I tend to end up preaching at evening services. Maybe, I easier to look at in the dark or something. It turns out that the contemporary service is at 0930 here and I'm preaching every other week. I preached on 1 John 1:5-2:2 and had a lot of fun. It's an easy passage for me to get really, really in to. Then, I ended up with 3 counseling sessions in the afternoon and started my new Bible Study in the evening. The Bible Study went well. We had a decent turn out for the first week and everyone was very interactive.

I miss my Bride. I miss my children. I miss my country.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Moved

2009-02-14T00:52:00.004-05:00

First, in light of the date (here anyway), I want everyone to know: I LOVE THIS WOMAN! There is no one on earth I'd rather spend every moment of my life with and there is no one I miss more. I love you so much!

Well...I haven't posted in awhile for a good reason. We moved. I no longer reside at the smelliest FOB in East Baghdad. We're now at a super FOB in West Baghdad. It already seems like I won't spend all that much time there. With 7 companies spread out over 10 locations, I have to travel...a lot. It will be more like a refuel/refit station for me.

Anyway...I've been doing the normal chaplain stuff...counseling, advising, MBWA(ministry by walking around) and preaching. I've had some hard times and some really good times. It seems things in the army are all about extremes. There is very little "center of tension" to speak of around here. I think maybe that's why this fits me so well. Occasionally people think there's something wrong with me because I'm not very up or very down. I just works anyway. I continue to be amazed at how God uses me. I've truly seen lives changed and get tod do some cool things in the process. I don't know to many other people in ministry who have gotten to ride around in all the cool toys I have.

Thanks for the prayers and please continue to remember us.

-Guardian Angel Out-

The hardest thing I do

2009-02-01T03:52:00.002-05:00

I haven't written in a while for good reason. Once again, I had to do the hardest thing I do as a chaplain. One or our Soldiers, from a company that had just arrived, was tragically killed. The unit was devasted, but thankfully very open to my ministry. I spent 5 days with them on their FOB, mostly to care for them, but also to help plan and participate in the memorial ceremony. There are no words to describe how hard it is on a Soldier to watch one of their own die. That's all I have to say about that.

I returned to more craziness here. Being away for that long creates a line of people with needs, but I think that's finally under control. I went visiting Soldiers with the Commander the other day and had an unusual experience. We were at an IP district headquarters, so i went to greet and pray for all the Soldiers who were in their trucks. For some reason, some of them got a real kick out of this and before I knew it, I was being followed around with a video camera. That was a bit awkward, but I was mostly able to ignore it and just talk to and pray for the Soldiers.

Praise God that the elections went off without any incidents in our area. This has been a major concern as of late. I only pray this means the Iraqi people are taking more and more ownership of their country.

Please continue to uphold me, my family and my Soldiers in prayer. I am positive your prayers make a difference in our lives.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Full week

2009-01-18T00:47:00.002-05:00

It was a very full week here.

The other two chaplains on my FOB and I got a visit from the division chaplain (LTC) and the corps chaplain (COL) this week. We preparred briefs for them and then spent about an hour talking with them. It was a good visit and both of these men were very encouraging. I do find it kind of amusing that we spend so much time getting ready for a visit that lasts an hour.

I traveled over to another FOB with the commander for a little while to visit one of our platoons that needed some love. I am always amazed at how encouraging and inspiring our commander can be when he knows his Soldiers need that from him. It was a good visit and I think it got some things worked out for them. I spent the majority of my time with one Soldier, but it was well spent time. I know that sounds a bit vague, but that's due to the nature of what I do and where I do it.

I also got to travel with the commander to check on Soldiers who were doing thier jobs out in sector. This was a great day. I had never imagined counseling anyone on the streets of Baghdad, but there I was with a Soldier talking to him about his struggles and sharing some scripture with him. It really is amazing to see a Soldier's face light up when they realize thier chaplain came to visit them in sector. My plan is to start doing this kind of ministry more often.

One of my favorite parts of the week, however, is talking with the Soldiers in my vehicle. They are so open and honest in that setting. There is also a commradarie that is hard to explain. I don't think I could expierience in any other way.

On top of all that, I had a lot of counseling sessions back on the FOB this week. I continue to find great joy in listening to the struggles my Soldiers are facing and then guiding them towards solutions. Phil 4:6-8 was always one of my favorite passages in scripture.

6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

I think it is now become my life verse(s). Rarely does a day go by when I don't end up sharing that scripture with someone. It's pretty obvious that these verses would have a huge impact on Soldiers who experience very little peace in there lives on a daily basis. It then often leads to a discussion about the gospel. Praise God for the power of his word.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Busy

2009-01-13T14:23:00.003-05:00

I appologize for not writing. Its just been very busy here.

There is a lot going on, but I feel like going into detail about some of it would trivialize it. There are things that happen here that others shouldn't try to understand because you can't really understand it until you experience it. For example, there is no way to describe the feelings when you hear sirens and the word "incoming." There are no words for the feeling of dread when you hear about a cassualty. There are also no words to desceibe the joy of helping a Soldier get through a difficult time or of preaching God's word to people desperate to hear good news that brings peace.

By God's grace, we have not lost anyone. There have been times, I am certain, He has supernaturally protected my Soldiers.

I continue to miss my family.

I continue to love this ministry.

I continue to experience blessing and a strenghtening of my faith.

- Pray for the saftey of these Soldiers who stand up for the cause of freedom not only for the

United States, but for the world.

- Pray for wisdom for leaders

- Pray for my family

- Pray for my wisdom, strength, and faithfulness

- Pray for salvations

Guardian Angel Out

Christmas and stuff

2008-12-30T12:49:00.002-05:00

Christmas went very well here. The Christmas Eve Service was well attended by our FOB's standards. I think the final count was 130. I was in charge of planning the service, so while the music was all the traditional Christmas carols, the format was anything but traditional. We focused on four perspectives of Christmas: Mary, Joseph, the shepherds and the wise men. Yes I know the wise men weren't there, but they started their journey then, so they have a unique perspective on the story. I shared the gospel towards the end and then we had a candle lighting as we sang Silent Night. It was a good night and I know it meant a lot to the Soldiers and others in attendance

On Christmas day I traveled to another FOB where I would be the only chaplain they saw during the holiday. I prepared a shorter version of the same service, using technology to aid in the music department. While attendance was pretty low, I know this service also meant a lot to the Soldiers. I was supposed to go to another location, but ended up staying there to do some counseling. It was alright anyway, because I wasn't doing a service at the second location. I got "home" in time to watch my children and wife open their gifts on the web cam. That meant a lot to me. As much as I wish I was there, I was still able to feel like we shared in our celebration.

Since Christmas, things have been pretty much back to normal. We had some almost surreal excitement today. All I'll say is that I had to sit in a bunker for a pretty long time. No one was hurt though, so I praise God for that.

I've done more counseling over the past month than I ever imagined doing when I first began pastoring. I was talking with someone about it today and the topic of how do I not get so wrapped up in Soldiers problems that I make them my own. It's a hard line and it's not always cut and dry. I have to empathize and feel what they feel while I'm counseling them. I don't think I could be pastoral unless I allowed myself to do that. Such a huge part of Jesus' ministry is that he has felt what we feel and understands what we go through. I have to follow that example. I can't be dispassionate and without feeling. At the same time I can't take all that feeling home with me every night. If I did, I would probably fall into a deep depression and be unable to sleep. For me, the solution is trust. I trust that as I feel what Soldiers are feeling, as I listen to their stories and as I offer them what I believe God would have me offer, I trust that the Spirit is leading me. When we're done, I trust that I've done all I can and I leave the rest up to God. It's not that I never think about it again or that I don't follow up. I do, but I do so with a belief that God is in control. I know that this may seem almost too simple to some people, but I think it has something to do with the way God has made me. It's not that I'm a better counselor than anyone else. Truth be told, I think I have a lot to learn in that field. I do know I'm able to balance the emotional demands of that ministry very well and I'm very thankful for that. I can't imagine doing this job if that wasn't the case.

Pray for safety.

Pray against the enemy. Trust me, it's biblical. Check the Psalms if you don't believe me.

Pray for my family.

Pray for my Chaplain Assistant.

Pray for my ministry.

Pray for many salvations.

Pray for my health, strength and faith.

-Guardian Angel Out-

A Sandy Christmas

2008-12-21T14:14:00.002-05:00

While my wife and I talked on the webcam today (an almost daily occurance for us), she mentioned, "we will have a white christmas." I told her, "Well, I'll have a sandy christmas." I know that's not very profound, but it amused me.

The past week has been pretty good. I didn't travel because there was a lot of counseling to do here. The need for that part of my ministry has increased drastically. While I sometimes struggle with the idea that someone would come to me, a sinner just like everyone else, I am consistently blessed by what God does during those times. Even when nothing is really resolved, I always seem to go away feeling encouraged that God was glorified. It's a kind of joy and peace that's hard to explain. A lot of times, people are coming because all they want is to vent thier frustrations to the one person who won't spread rumors. I have to be a sort of sponge for everyone else's frustrations. For some reason, I walk away from those times with joy. i know it's weird because convential wisdo would say listeningto everybody's problems should make me depressed. The only explanation for it is God. It's also nice that I can ussually work in a spiritual application in my response to what Soldiers tell me. Sometimes, I trully don't know what to say because there are no words that can take away the grief, fear or anger. It's then that I just try to go through it with them, so they know they're not alone.

I don't know if any of that makes sense, but hopefully it gives you some insight into the counseling ministry of an Army chaplain.

I've also been preaching regulary and I'll be starting a new Bible study using the seeker sensative small group "Tough Questions" series. Those are always fun things for me to do. Tonight I preached on Simeon in Luke 2:25-32 and used this scene from elf as my introduction.

My sermon can be found here if you have any interest in reading it. Yes, I know there are grammer and spelling problems. I print once and then make my corrections with pen.

Anyway, as usual, I miss my wife and kids. There are no "nice chaplain words" to describe how I feel about being seperated from them, so you can use your imagination and fill in the blank. Yes it is that bad. In the midst of how bad it is, God has been sufficent and ministered to my needs. I know that has something to do with all the prayer for us. Please keep it coming.

Pray for me and my family. Pray for the Soldiers of the 91st. Pray for my counseling ministry. Pray for my preaching ministry. Pray for my ministry of presence (visitation). Pray for my chaplain assistant. Pray for a multitude of salavations. Pray for safety.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Traveling Man

2008-12-11T03:34:00.002-05:00

Well, I've been on the move again. With the majority of our Soldiers living in different places from the BN Headquarters, it's not really a question of if I'll travel, but more like when and where. I left early in the week and headed out to visit one of our companies on a very small FOB. I like going there because it's a nice place (top of the line, clean fitness center and nice Dining Facility) and the company is good about having Soldiers ready to see me. I only stayed a night, but got to accomplish a lot of ministry. Then it was on to another of our companies at a JSS (Joint Security Station). I'm here for 2 nights and enjoying my stay. They've also had Soldiers for me to see and I enjoyed attending a Bible study led by one of thier NCOs. The living conditions aren't bad at all. They put me up in a little (6.5' x7.5' private room), which is the standard for all soldiers here. It's quiet during the down time which is nice and there's also decent exercise equipment, which I highly enjoy. It's always a lettle nerve racking to travel by convoy, but as soon as I seek it, I feel that peace that passes all understnding. It also helps my nerves to know that MP's are very good at this sort of thing.

Being away from my family is still very hard and doesn't get easier, but God has kept me content through it all. He has continued to fill that void in my heart with his love and compassion.

Pray for the saftey of my Soldiers. We haven't had any cassualties yet and we'd like to keep it that way. Pray for their spiritual lives as well. So many of them live every day without the peace and security of a relationship with Jesus. Finally, pray for all our families as they celebrate the holidays without us.

-Guardian Angel Out-

Clarification

2008-12-07T01:31:00.002-05:00

In case anyone misinterpreted something I wrote in my last post, I want to clarify.

I am not at all discouraged by those who think military service for Christians is wrong. In fact, I think that they are either very misguided or very uninformed. I was simply trying to be objective in answering a comment from a previous post. I believe in what I'm doing and I believe that few ministries could posibly be considered more biblical. Just consider how important the prophets were in Biblical battles. Anyone who thinks God has no place in war, has to ignore a lot of scripture.

That's all. Have a great Sunday.

-Guardian Angel Out -

Another Week Down

2008-12-06T13:30:00.003-05:00

Time really does seem to fly by here. I'm feeling fully settled into the deployment now. We had our transfer of authority and the BN we relaced should be home by now. Not everyone can bring themselves to feel this way, but I'm trully happy for them. After 14 hard months, they really deserve it.

I went out again this week to visit another one of our outlying units. This time we went to a little FOB, south of the city. It was a bit rustic, but the Soldiers seemed to be in good spirits and I really enjoyed my time there. The one thing that takes some getting used to is that they have regular "outgoing" artillery fire there. It's pretty loud and shakes everything. It can be a bit unnerving at 0200, but I'm told you get used to it. Hopefully, it's my first of many visits. It's becoming very clear that will be the challenge of this deployment for me. After we pick up 2 more units, close to 90% of our Soldiers will live in different places from the BN HHD. That means I have to count on other chaplains to look in on my Soldiers and try to get there as often as possible. I don't mind the traveling at all. I just wish I could be around them every day, so I could get to know them better.

Overall, ministry is going well. We had some technical difficulties (government computers don't do what I want them to do) at our first service, but I think I have them all figured out. I'm excited about preaching on a regular basis. It's something I've been missing a lot.

Someone asked about my thoughts on being away from family in a comment. It is, without a doubt, the single hardest part of deployment. Before this, I don't think I had ever gone more than a week without seeing my family. There is heart ache. I worry about them sometimes. I get jealous of those who get to be with thier families all the time. Sometimes, there is even a very real physical pain. In all that, though, God has provided. I have grown in my dependence upon Him. He has filled the void in my heart everytime I have come to Him for comfort. I still wish I didn't have to be away, but I believe God provides for those He calls to this strange ministry. At least he has for me. I know some would argue that being away is somehow theologically wrong. I guess that means that ministry to Soldiers is wrong, because you can't have it both ways.

Anyway, I'm content. I'm not always 100% happy, but I am quite content.

Pray for my Soldiers. They sacrifice so much and do an awesome job. I find myself praying more and more that I would be a worthy chaplain for them. I pray that they would come to know true peace, true joy and true hope through Jesus. I also pray that people realize how amazing these men and women are. Some of the things they do every day, without a second thought, are astounding. I can't talk about that kind of stuff, but let's just say you don't get Bronze Stars with Valor for nothing (and several of them will get them). I simply hope that all Americans realize it and act upon those realizations.

- Guardian Angel Out -

(Our BN is the "The Guardians." Since chaplains don't have a numerical call sign like Guardian 1, 2, 3, etc., one of the other officers suggested Guardian Angel for me. It sounded cool, so i went with it.)

Happy Thanksgiving from Baghdad

2008-11-27T06:39:00.002-05:00

Have you personally thanked a soldier, sailor, airman or marine today? If not, go find or call (not text or email) one (present or prior service) and thank them for what they do. Tell them you're proud of them and thabnkful for thier service.

It's been a good Thanksgiving. Obviously, I'd rather spend it with my family, but this is the next best thing. We had a Thanksgiving worship service this morning that was well attended and went very well. Our Task Force then had the first serving time. All the senior staff served for 45 minutes and then another TF took over. All I had to do was hand out bowls of shrimp cocktail, but it was fun. The food was great. Most people have off for the rest of the day.

This week went very well. I learned a lot from my counterpart about ministry here on our FOB as well as for our non-co-located units. I even got to go outside the wire, travel to several important places in the city and spend the night with one of our companies at a tiny FOB. Some places in the city are like stepping into another universe. There is destruction and trash everywhere and people are living in horrible conditions. There are military and police everywhere. Some places, though, look like the downtown of any city in the world. The bad places are tough to see. It's impossible for me to look at them and not have great compassion for them..

I've pretty much taken over 100% at this point. Some of the soldiers from the companies still want to see my counterpart for counseling, but I totally understand that. I'm taking advantage of his experience while he's still here for a couple more days.

The ministry is fantastic and I love being with the Soldiers. When they are out on mission, they are so raw and real over the headsets. I love hearing, what they really think. They trully are heroes. War has changed me in that my definition of heroism is becoming more narrow. Athletes, celebrities, poloticians, general and phianthropic do-gooders are not heroic. People who put themselves in harms way to serve others are heroic. If what you do to serve others costs you nothing, then it isn't service. End of story.

I can't wait to wrap my arms aroud my family again.

At The FOB

2008-11-22T14:54:00.002-05:00

After a flight on a C17 and a Chinook, we arrived at our FOB in Baghdad a couple of days ago. Right now, I'm learning all I can from the chaplain of the BN we're replacing. He's a great guy who is finishing he second deployment. He's also another SBC chaplain, so we see eye to eye on a lot of stuff. I'm so thankful that he has been taking the time to really make sure I understand everything I need to know to be succesful.

The counseling side of ministry has already started, but is pretty light while my counterpart is still here. The chapel side will pick up next week when I take the lead.

So far, the process has gone great. The living conditions are pretty good. I have my own room with more space and furniture than I'll ever use. The chapel is awesome. It's a small FOB in a pretty bad spot, but it has everything we need for the time we will spend here.

I have a ton of pictures, but it's late and I need sleep. Everyone will just have to wait.

God continues to teach me through scripture. This morning in my reading, one of the passages I read was Mark 7:24-30. I realized that while I may focus my ministry on a certain group of people, I have to be aware of those on the outskirts who by faith are seeking the type healing that only Jesus can bring. That may not be a great exposition of the passage, but those thoughts are what came to mind after reading it. Please pray that I will be specially attuned to those who are seeking regardless of who I am trying to reach.

I miss my family so much it often hurts in a physical sense. I am so thankful that the internet here has been adequate for video calls on Skype. Seeing thier faces and hearing thier voices has helped so much. I swear my wife has gotten even more beautiful since I've left.

Thank you to all of you who support us and especially for those who are faithful to pray. We couldn't do it without you.

- Dave

Groundhog Day

2008-11-18T13:06:00.002-05:00

I'm currently going through Groundhog day. Since we finished training in Kuwait, there is nothing to do. We're just waiting for our flight which keeps getting delayed. We now have a hard time, bt it was later than expected.

Anyway, my day goes like this: Wake up, shave and brush teeth, breakfast, computer, work out for 2 hours, lunch, devotions and other reading, phone, dinner, read or go to USO, sleep.

I try to switch the order on the flexible stuff, but it still feels the same. This is normal for a lot of Soldiers, but not chaplains. Usually one day is never like another and never like you expect.

Anyway, God has been teaching me a lot through his word. it's amazing what you can learn from a Psalm , a paragraph of Proverbs and a paragraph of Mark a day. I guess my circumstances give me a new perspective for application as I read.

I miss my wife and kids. I know it goes without saying, but it hasn't gotten easier.

Almost done in Kuwait

2008-11-16T11:47:00.002-05:00

We had a long week of training in Kuwait, but our time here is coming to a close. For the most part, I went to a lot of training that is at best, marginally related to my job. It was all good stuff though and it's good that I endure it with my peers. I think it helps me earn their respect when they know a lot of chaplains play the "chaplain card" to get out of it. This weekend we went to the "field" and had convoy training. It was good training and i learned a lot. On Saturday evening, I returned to from training to find out that Soldiers from another unit requested a worship service. Since i was the only chaplain out there (big surprise), I threw together a short service consisting of prayer, scripture reading and preaching. I love doing services because they are voluntary events where I can get away with anything. I always take those opportunities to present the gospel. I'm not sure of the results from last night, but I know I've earned the "right" to be heard this week.

I miss my family more than words can describe, but even in the midst of that God has sustained me and i can truly say that I have been content.

In Kuwait

2008-11-08T21:53:00.003-05:00

I arrived in Kuwait a couple of days ago after a long flight that included stops in Goose Bay, CA; Keflavik, Iceland; and Budapest Hungary. So far, everything is going very well. I'm mostly recovered from the jet lag. There's not been a whole lot to do yet, but our training is about to pick up speed. Morale is pretty high, but most of us a looking forward to arriving at our FOB and getting started with the mission at hand. I've been reading a Psalm, one paragraph of proverbs and a chapter of the Gospels every day. God has been speaking to me through his Word in some ways that are very poignant and personal. It's amazing how He always gives me just what I need.

I already miss my family, but communication has been adequate so that helps a lot. Pray for my wife and children. They have been doing well and I know it is because so many are praying for them.

Please pray for my Soldiers as well. They are brave men and women of honor. They truly know what it means to sacrifice for the sake of others. Pray that many will come to know Him that sacrificed everything for us all.

Pray for me. Pray that I would continue to honor my calling. Pray for strength. Pray for good relationships with my Soldiers. Pray that I use the power God has given me to be His witness.

My thoughts on the vote

2008-11-01T18:22:00.003-05:00

As an officer in the United States Army, I cannot attempt to influence anyone's vote for a particular candidate. For that reason, let me be clear that this post is not an endorsement by me or the army for any one candidate in particular. I simply ask that you consider a couple of things that are important before you vote. I really don't pretend to believe anyone will change their vote because of something I write. I know I had my mind made up very early on and nobody could have changed it. It's just on my mind, so i thought I'd blog about it.

1. Consider Soldiers. The man you elect president will be their Commander in Chief. If you were a Soldier, which candidate would you feel most comfortable with as your commander?

2. Consider national security and your own safety. Have you considered how safe we have been from terrorist attacks since the beginning of the Global War on Terror? I think that says a lot about our current leadership? Who do you really feel most comfortable with to continue to keep us safe and secure?

3. Finally, please consider the vote from a biblical perspective. I found the following video on another chaplain's blog. It is the thoughts of a man with far more biblical wisdom than anyone I know. It is also very objective. You'll notice right away that he is not trying to push one candidate and that he is not concerned with being politically correct. I'll bet most women will not like his first comments, but try to get past that part and listen carefully to the prophetic perspective part

2008-10-30T21:20:00.004-05:00

Tuesday Night when it had been snowing for a couple of hours

Wednesday morning, after it snowed all night and was still going

Thursday afternoon fun with the kids

It's going to snow

2008-10-27T20:48:00.001-05:00

It's going to snow tomorrow afternoon and night. The forecast is for 8-12 inches......on October 28! I thought i would miss out on winter here by deploying in early November. Guess I better get a shovel...

hard week

2008-10-26T15:37:00.002-05:00

This was an unusually hard week for a unit so close to deployment. Monday wasn't a bad day. Those that need to qualify with the M-9 did so and everyone else had a a fairly light day. Tuesday was filled with make-up training. I got pegged for a couple of things. Even though I knew I had already completed each item, I went anyway. Afterwords we had a long meeting, followed by being locked down because items that had to be inventoried couldn't be found. Wednesday we had some more training and then a night fire range. One thing led to another and we didn't get released until 2330. Thursday was SRC all morning. I got 17 needle sticks!!! 15 were for the smallpox vaccination, 1 was for typhoid and the other was my 3rd anthrax. After that, I had to lead a rehersal for the next day's memorial ceremony. The rehearsal ended up going well once we got started. The toughest part was getting the display right. Friday was a very hard day. While I am honored to have the opportunity to lead memorial ceremonies, they are unbelievably heart wrenching. The soldier from our unit who passed away was a great soldier. He was doing everything right and was killed in a tragic accident. The ceremony went great even with the last minute, surprise VIP's who attended. For me the hardest part isn't the small sermon I give. It's sitting on the stage watching, as over 250 soldiers approach the display and salute. Many were barely able to do so. Please pray that I don't have to do even one of these while we're deployed.

Something to send for my soldiers

2008-10-20T20:38:00.002-05:00

People are always asking me what they can send me for my soldiers when we deploy. I've sent lists to the churches that support me of some ideas. To be perfectly honest though, there isn't much our soldiers can't get on the FOB. We don't live in tents in the middle of the desert.

For that reason, one of the best things you could send are AAFES gift cards for the PX (Post Exchange). You can find them here. After I get to our FOB, I'll send my address and you can start sending them to me. They can be purchased online for as little as $10! This is easy and very, very effective.

2nd week of block leave and 1st week back

2008-10-19T13:56:00.006-05:00

Our 2nd week of block leave was wonderful!. My parents came up on Sunday and we spent a little time with them before my wife and I left for the surprise trip I had planned. We went to Ceaser's Pocono Palace and stayed in a room that included a heart shaped tub, fireplace and our own pool. The resort was beautiful with all the leaves changing and just about perfect weather. It was also nice to be somewhere that was all inclusive, so we didn't have to worry about meals or anything. The 50% military discount wasn't that bad either. My has wanted to go there since we've been married and since I'll probably miss our 10th anniversary, I thought this would be a nice time. I think it was everything we expected and more. On one of the days we went to Bushkill Falls and I got some pretty good pictures which are posted below.

After 4 nights there, we traveled to NJ and spent the night at my sister's house. Then my parents brought the kids down and we celebrated fall birthdays with them and my grandparents. We spent the next two nights at my parents house and visited our old church that Sunday. I think we really maximized my two weeks of block leave.

Unfortunately, on the way back to FT Drum, I got a call that one of our NCOs had been killed in a motorcycle accident. That made for a fairly rough start to these last couple of weeks before deployment. His funeral was in NC on Friday and we will have a memorial ceremony this coming Friday. Other than that, we are busy trying to finish the last bits of training and prep before we leave. Our Commander has been trying to get us out no later than 1500 every day, so that is nice. People are definitely stressed out though, so I'm trying to do what I can to help there. My family is doing well. Everyone seems to be happy and healthy.

Productive Week Off

2008-10-04T14:04:00.003-05:00

I've been on my pre-deployment block leave since Tuesday and it has been very nice to be away from work for a little while. We decided to stay in town this first week an get some stuff done. I ended up being a very productive week. We cleaned out both vans, vacuumed and washed them. We also changed the oil on my wife's van and got the pictures taken of it for insurance. We then traded in the old van on an 03 Dodge Durango so that we have something with 4wd that can fit all three car seats. It's kind of a neccesity in the North Country. My wife was also able to drop off a whole bunch of donations at the various thrift shops on and off post. She also purchased all the books to record me reading for the kids. We're doing 12, so they get to see a new one for each month I'm gone.

I also had some daddy time with each of our children. I took my oldest daughter to one of the indoor pools on post and we went swimming. My younger daughter and I had an afternoon at the mall. We got lunch, went to the arcade and got our pictures taken in a photo both, went shopping at the toy store and got a pretzel. I took my son to a park with a huge, castle like, playground and then out to lunch. It was nice to spend one on one time with each of them.

We were going to get a remote start installed in my wife's van, but after the suprise estimat on the labor, we decided to go with a gps instead. It should be very usefull to her while I'm gone, since I'm ussually her human gps.

We also got some shelves for the laundry room. That should help with some pantry overflow and organization in that room. The garage got some attention as well. We starpped the car top carrier up to the ceiling and went through a bunch of boxes. Now, all we have to do in there is get everything out of the car area and into the storage area.

We even got two important pictures taken. I finally got my DA photo taken. That's important for several reasons and it's something that can't be done while deployed. We also finally got a good picture taken for a prayer card. It's the new picture on the blog. I got a deal on the cards too, which should be here by next Friday.

That's about it for now. Next week, my parents are coming up to watch the children and I'm taking my wife away to a suprise location for a little get away. Then we'll head to NJ for the weekend and come back here on Monday.

1 More Day Till Block Leave

2008-09-27T14:53:00.002-05:00

Last week we had our MRX and everything went well. It was quite a stressful week for most of the staff, but I think we all learned a lot. The idea is to throw more at us in a week then we'll probably ever face in a month. Our (me and my assistant) hardest task was planning a memorial ceremony. It was helpful, though, to do it once before we ever have to do it when it counts. Hopefully all our preparation in that area will be unnecessary.

Next week, we go back to work on Monday and then we're off for 2 weeks of block leave. During the first week I'm going to focus on spending some 1 on 1 time with each of my kids. Then, I'm taking my wife away during the second week. We'll end our time with a couple of days in NJ, since that'll be the last time I can get down there before I leave.

Please continue to pray for the 91st.

TOCX done, up next....MRX

2008-09-21T20:22:00.002-05:00

Last week, we had our TOCX (tactical operations center exercise). While I don't have a role in the TOC, I had to check in several times a day to see if they needed anything for me. Mostly, the purpose was for our S-2 shop (Intel) and S-3 shop (Ops) to get ready for our MRX (Mission Readiness Exercise) which starts tommorow. This is a week where we try to act as much as possible as we would when we're deployed and get certified by the Brigade as ready to deploy. It's an important week for us and I'm sure there will be many who are stressed. That probably means a very busy week for me. On Monday, the UMT (Unit Ministry Team - Me and my Chaplain Assistant) get to go through the LFX (live fire exercise). The idea is to try to prepare us as much as possible for all the bad stuff that could happen on a convoy. It should be fun.

I also turn 30 this week. It's an age that I've looked forward to for a long time. For some reason that's the magic age when people start to respect pastors. I always thought (still do) it was dumb that people would care about the age of a pastor. I've met 21 years olds, with little experience, who would make excellent Sr. Pastors. I've met 50 year olds, with tons of experience, who make horrible Sr. Pastors. Still, I'd wager that if you let both candidate at any random church, the 50 year old would still get the job 999 times out 1000. Admitedly, my view is a bit subjective, but I you will still have a hard time convincing me that age is very low on the scriptual qualifications (if it even is one) for ministry. Ever hear of a guy named Timothy?

Quick update

2008-09-12T21:59:00.002-05:00

Deployment is getting closer and closer. Hence, I'm busier and busier. The big thing I've been focused on recently was our pre-deployment retreat. This week I took 190 Soldiers and Family members to Niagara Falls for training and a little R&R. We had classes on managing stress and expectations, communication, finances, relationships and spiritual resources. We stayed at the Niagara Falls Air Reserve Station. The lodging there is really nice and very affordable. Any military personel can stay there, so it makes a trip to the falls very affordable. While getting everyone there and checked in was very stressful, the trip was great success. Everyone seemed to have a great time and learn a little as well. The upcoming weeks include two weeks of qualifying exercises for our Battalion and then two weeks of block leave.

Our oldest started first grade and seems to be doing well. Our 3 yeard old also started pre-school and is enjoying it. Our almost two year old is full of energy and seems to be the early riser of our family, much to the chagrin of my wonderful wife. My wife starts teaching AWANA again this week. Please pray for her as she was given an age group that is a bit older than she is comfortable teaching.

Thanks again for your prayers and suport.

What I'm afraid of

2008-08-24T13:56:00.001-05:00

People are always asking me if I'm getting nervous, worried or scared about deploying. For the most part the only things I'm feeling are the excitement of the upcoming ministry and the sadness of knowing I'll be away from my family for so long.

If there is one thing that scares me, it's not my personal safety. I couldn't have more confidence that I'll be kept safe. The one thing that really scares me is how well I'll do when the inevitable happens. Will I be able to handle caring for my unit when my own heart is ripped out by a death in our unit. Below is a quote from an article written by a Jewish Chaplain on his feelings during those times.

I looked at the body bags and thought about the three women back home, who'd probably just received news right about then that they were now young widows, single mothers of fatherless children. The three little girls in Idaho and the two little boys in Colorado who'd have to stop crossing off dates on the calendar, waiting for Daddy to come home.

I thought of the parents who were soon to get the phone call letting them know the baby they'd carried home from the hospital, taught to ride a bike, watched graduate from high school, get married and start a family of his own, was coming home on an Air Force plane in a metal box, packed in ice, paperwork fitted neatly in a large manila envelope, his last name written across it with a black, felt-tipped marker, taped to the inside of the lid to avoid any chance of mistaken identity.

You can check out the whole article

here

busy, busy, busy...

2008-08-18T20:29:00.002-05:00

I know I sound like a broken record, but I don't know how else to describe it. The life of an Army Chaplain is just non stop business. Last week was supposed to be busy to start with. We had TSIRT and a visit from the 16th MP Brigade Commander. Of course that's on top of all the normal chaplain stuff. Then the week got busier. Out of respect, I won't mention specifics, but a family member of a Soldier in our unit passed away suddenly. I ended up doing the memorial service and committal on Thursday. The family seemed to really appreciate and I'm glad I could bring some peace and comfort to a very hard situation. The week ended pretty crazy, due to some issues with my pre-deployment retreat that I'd rather not be specific about and the craziness will probably continue for the next several weeks. Oh well, it'll be worth it in the end if even one Soldier or Family member is helped.

The Anti Groundhog Day

2008-08-11T19:46:00.003-05:00

Last week was another busy time of counseling and meetings. I also spent two mornings opening up VBS with scripture and prayer. One thing I love about what I do here is that one day is never like another. I've heard being deployed can be a little like Groundhog Day,

but I wonder how much that will be true for me. I think the vast differences in the counseling I get to do is what makes every day different. While Soldiers have similar problems, they are always unique in their own little ways.

My parents, sister and niece also came for a visit this weekend. It was really nice to see them and show them around. I know our kids absolutely loved spending time with them again. It's good to know our families are both close enough to visit from time to time.

Deployment is getting closer and closer. This week's training is TSIRT. For all the big deal that's made about it, all it amounts to is death by PowerPoint briefs. The funny thing is, I even enjoy that a bit as I get to suffer alongside my Soldiers.

Another week down

2008-08-02T08:20:00.002-05:00

It feels a bit like I'm in a countdown mode now. We still have several months left, but when you spend countless meetings going over what training is left to be completed before we leave, it feels like a countdown.

I've been spending a lot of time planning a pre-deployment retreat. We're going to go to a Air Force reserve base in Niagara Falls. Of course the housing and catering there is amazing. It is the Air Force after all.

While I don't mind preparing for all that it entails to go on a retreat in the army (funding nightmare), I still enjoy spending time with my soldiers more than anything else. I didn't do the bulk of the counseling in our church as a civilian pastor, so I never realized how much I would enjoy that aspect of this ministry.

I guess Friday was the highlight of the week. Both my assistant and I were promoted at the payday ceremony. It was pretty cool to pin on CPT and then to be able to pin SPC on my assistant. I guess the 91st MP BN UMT is growing up.

Busy week

2008-07-27T13:45:00.002-05:00

I was in FBCB2 (look it up if you're interested) training all week. This makes things busy enough because I then have to fit in all my counseling, preaching prep and various administration tasks
around the 8 hour a day class. On top of that, I was also asked to speak at another BN's prayer breakfast. That went well and I guess I did a good job because the BN commander gave me his coin. That was the first coin I've received for actually doing something. We also had another late deployment related meeting this week, which is such a blast. Then, on Friday, I was asked to give the invocation at the retirement ceremony. This consists of dressing up in Class-A's, giving a 30 second prayer at the beginning of the ceremony and then sitting still on stage as each retiree is honored. It's a cool thing to get to do, but I was thankful there were only 9 this month. I've attended others that had close to 30. All in all, it was good week in which I got to help several soldiers work through some problems. It's just so busy now that we are intensively preparing for deployment.

Oh yeah, the night of my late meeting was an interesting one on the home front. My son found a black permanent marker. In the 30 seconds or so that it took my wife to bring clean laundry upstairs, he drew all over a tile floor, carpet, vacuum and himself (including down his diaper). This was after he soiled the stairs with a dirty diaper and before he ground a brownie into the carpet. All that happened in less than a 15 hour span. It's a good thing for him that he's so cute.

First Week back and some good news

2008-07-20T15:29:00.003-05:00

My first week back after block leave was a pretty good week. I didn't hear about any of the issues everyone was worried about after block leave, so that's a good thing. It was nice to get back to ministering to my soldiers again. I didn't realize how much I missed them. I spent most of the week attending a battle command seminar, but still did a lot of counseling in between. Some of our soldiers are hurting pretty bad. Please pray for them. Some of it was interesting, but most of it didn't really apply to me. I suppose I was there to suffer alongside the rest of the staff. Next week, I have classroom training on the FBCB2 all week. Look it up if you're interested. Our house is coming along. We're probably about 80% unpacked at this point.

The good news is the fact that I found out I was supposed to be promoted to CPT on July 5th. In fact, as far as DA and finance is concerned, it already happened. I just have to wait for our Commander to get back on August 1st, so I can get officially pinned on. It'll be nice to not be the only 1LT Chaplain at Fort Drum anymore.

Since it was asked

2008-07-09T21:08:00.002-05:00

Here are my thoughts on the emergent church:

It depends on what you mean by emergent. Many use the term to define the entire emerging movement, when it is actually only a small part. Mark Driscol has a great explanation of the emerging movement and 4 streams within it. I would put myself in the missional stream.
I am, however, highly opposed to the Mclaren led (although not everything he writes is bad), liberal, emergent stream.

Soldier's Heart and The Barbarian Way

2008-07-08T21:56:00.003-05:00

I just started reading this book, by a Literature prof from West Point. So far it's, been pretty interesting to read the perspective of a civilian who has had considerable impact on about 1000 new officers a year for over a decade. Her views wouldn't all be considered popular in the army, but at least she's honest and writes from real experience, unlike some others who opine about Soldiers. I also had to look up 3 words in the first 20 pages. After all the education I've endured, that doesn't happen often (not counting weird army acronyms). I hope that didn't sound like I was bragging, because I meant to express feeling very humbled. Anyway, it's a good read.

I've also been reading this. Warning: if you are happy in you're comfortable (boring), safe (fearful), and conformist (clone like) 21st century Christian life, don't read this book. If, on the other hand, you think there must be more to this, then please read this book. It'll make you completely reconsider what it really means to be a disciple of Jesus. Some people will really hate this because it will not agree with the way they have always done things. Reading stuff like this makes me come back to the same question over and over again. As far as orthoproxy (correct practices) goes, and definitely not orthodoxy (correct beliefs), is the majority of the evangelical church more like the the apostles or the pharisees?

Maybe it's thoughts like those that caused God to call me away from church ministry and toward the chaplaincy. Well, that and my heart for the soldiers.

On Block Leave

2008-07-05T07:23:00.002-05:00

We got all our stuff in the house and the beds set up. That's it for now, though. the day after the movers came, my wife and kids had to leave for VA to prepare for her sister's wedding. I joined them a couple of days later, so the house is still full of boxes. That should be interesting to come home to next week.

After the wedding, we spent a couple of more days in VA and then traveled up to NJ. We've been trying to relax as much as possible and just enjoy our time together. So far, we've gone swimming and to a spray park with the kids. We all went to the Freehold fireworks on the 3rd. It's always fun to watch our kids watch fireworks. Last night, my wife and I went to the Colts Neck fireworks. It started to rain, but we ended up parked with a great view from our van. This 4th was a little different for me. I guess i just feel a little more connected to those who have fought for and to protect our freedom. It's even more real as i consider the upcoming deployment. Anyway, we'll be in NJ for another week. We're hoping to get to the shore a couple of times and spend time with some friends.

moving day tomorrow!!!

2008-06-22T21:08:00.002-05:00

Tomorrow we move into our house on post. We actually got the keys last week and have been slowly moving stuff from the apartment, but tomorrow the movers come and we get our stuff. I think I'm most excited for our kids. We moved out of our old house the day after Christmas, so they only had most of their gifts for a day. It should be like Christmas all over again. We also finally found a new family vehicle. We'll pick it up tomorrow as well. It should be a pretty memorable day.

This past week was another tough one. I had several late nights and several trips to mental health at the hospital. I can't tell you how much my heart breaks for some of these soldiers. Pray that they would have their hearts softened enough to except the hope I offer them.

Never a dull week

2008-06-15T21:22:00.002-05:00

Every time I think I've got a handle on my week, something unexpected happens. I knew this past week was going to be busy. The staff is in the midst of MDMP (look it up) for our upcoming trip the birthplace of civilization. This means many, many long hours. Our detachment also had reflexive fire training planned at the range. My goal were to get my part done with MDMP and get out to the range for a little while to go through the training with my assistant and encourage the other soldiers.

My plans were going pretty well until about 1630 on Wednesday. I got a phone call telling me I was up to to do an internment service on Thursday at 1200. The crazy part is that is was 4 hours away from Ft. Drum. So I got everything together, made a motel reservation and got going. I also took a chaplain candidate along with me to observe. I got to the motel at around 2330, prepared for the service and went to sleep. I woke up the next morning, got my class A's looking right and we took off for the cemetery. The service went well. I believe it honored the soldier and his family, just like they deserved. If you've never been to one of these, I encourage you to watch the papers and try to get to one at some point. While the chaplain's part is important and I did the best I could to offer words of comfort and honor, the military honors are astoundingly moving. Everything from the various salutes, firing volleys, playing of taps and the folding and presentation of the flag is quite humbling. In case you're wondering, this was a good soldier who made it through his tour and then was run over in a parking lot. It was absolutely tragic.

To say the least, this threw off my week. I never made it to the range. I guess God had a different plan.

Last night I spoke at a ministry called The Crossings. It's a lot like the ministry I used to lead (1830). My message went very well and in the end, I was asked to lead the service. I'm excited about this opportunity and look forward to getting to share God's word in this way again.

Father's day was today. My wife made me special donuts (cinamon rolls) for breakfast and I got several cute cards from my kids. The service this morning was a mix of scripture readings, testimonies about dads and prayer for dads. It was very moving.

That's all for now. Please pray for soldiers, especially those who are deployed and the 91st MPs

Still Alive

2008-06-08T13:07:00.002-05:00

I know it's been forever, but yes, I am still alive. I never thought life could be more hectic, busy and tiring than it was as a pastor. Now I realize how "cushy" pastoring really is. I'm saying that to belittle pastors or puff myself up (although I'm sure someone, somewhere will take it that way). The only way I can describe to people who haven't done it is this way. Try to imagine all the mental, spiritual and emotional stress and exhaustion of a pastor, which also affects you physically. Now try to imagine all the physical, mental and emotional stress of a Soldier. Once you've imagined them both, add them together and you get what it's like to be a chaplain.

The crazy thing is, as tired as it makes me, I have never felt more at peace and joy in ministry. The chance to share Jesus with Soldiers makes it all worth while. I have really come to a better understanding of what Paul meant when hew wrote 2 Tim 2:10 - So I am willing to endure anything if it will bring salvation and eternal glory in Christ Jesus to those God has chosen.

I'm sure things will get harder, especially when we deploy later this year, but I am more and more confident that God is simply putting me in places that he has made me able to endure. I know this isn't exactly a 21st century outlook, but I would rather serve in a situation that I can just barely endure than a situation that's pretty simple for me. For some reason, I find myself more joyful that way.

Now some news:

1. I changed us from a 4 to a 3 bedroom house on the waiting list and now we're getting one, probably by the end of the week. It's a pretty nice house: recently renovated 1700 square feet with playground right behind it. Thank you for those that have been praying. this is a huge answer to prayer. it will also enhance our ministry as I begin a Friday night fellowship/Bible study at our house.

2. We recently spent two weekends in NJ. It was great being HOME and spending time with our family and friends.

3. I had to lead staff office PT this past week and I found a great new game. It's a little nuts, but also a great workout. If you want to try it, look up Hoover ball. Then get a 4-6 pound medicine ball and a volleyball net.

4. I love serving soldiers, especially the 91st MP BN!

New Patch

2008-05-08T21:34:00.004-05:00

I forgot to mention that we changed our patch recently to reflect that we are officially a part of the 16th MP Brigade (AIRBORNE). Since that Brigade is at Fort Bragg, we are still under the 10th Sustainment Brigade for administrative purposes. This doesn't change our mission to support 10th Mountain at all. rather it just correctly identifies us. The patch changing ceremony was fairly emotional for those who have deployed and lost friends while wearing the 10th Mountain patch.

a long overdue update

2008-05-08T20:49:00.002-05:00

It's hard to know what to say about chaplain related stuff. There is so much I really can't or shouldn't talk about with any specifics. I think what I'll do for these posts now is give a general rundown of my day, a family update and some prayer requests.

Today was a good day. We have staff officer PT once a week. Today we played Wallyball and it was a lot of fun. I think it definitely accomplished its purpose of building esprit de corps. The work day started with a regular weekly meeting with the XO. After that, I went with the commander to visit training. Our first two stops weren't great for me since classes were going on and there were no breaks while I was there. It's kind of hard to talk with soldiers in that situation without completely disrupting training. The third stop went much better. They took a break and I got to break out the candy (huge morale booster) and talk to several soldiers. On the way back we saw a bear, so that was pretty cool. After that, all the staff officers got excused from one of our weekly meetings that is very long, so that was a nice treat. My work day ended with a brief from the commander to all the battalion newcomers. After that my wife brought to kids over to our company FRG (family readiness group) meeting. In case you're wondering, my day started at 0700 and ended at 1900. 12 hours may seem like a long day, but it's actually shorter than a lot our soldiers' average days.

I wish I could explain what training I'm doing and visiting, what meetings are about and things like that because it would really bring light to what I'm doing. Unfortunately, that would be very bad OPSEC (look it up).

The biggest thing that has happened regarding the family lately is that we moved out of our hotel room in temporary housing and into a 2 bedroom furnished apartment. It's nothing great, but it should make enduring the wait for on post housing much more tolerable.

Pray for the soldiers of the 91st MP Battalion. There needs are many. Some are still adjusting to being back home after a recent deployment. Some are dealing with the stress of upcoming deployments. Marriages are strained, to say the least. Yet, through it all, the overwhelming majority are proud to serve and motivated to do so with honor. Pray for the officers an NCO's to be wise leaders. Pray for the junior enlisted to be good soldiers. Pray for their safety. Pray for their emotional and spiritual health. Please pray for their salvation.

Pray for me as I seek to reach them with the gospel and serve them like Jesus would.

Pray for my family as we continue to adjust to a very different life in a constant state of transition. Please pray for housing.

Thanks for reading,

Dave

A huge task

2008-04-22T21:21:00.002-05:00

Every day I spend getting more and more acclimated to being a chaplain, I am finding that the job is much bigger than I ever realized. I am pretty sure that if I let myself, I could spend all of my time in meeting and counseling people. It's amazing the trust that soldiers put in me simply because I am "the chaplain." It's a bit like the trust that people put in "the senior pastor." The big difference is that most of the soldiers don't share the same faith with me. I think their trust really comes down to the fact that I wear the same uniform and deal with a lot of the same issues. As I'm starting to get a feel for what to do on a day to day basis, I'm enjoying the job more and more. It's funny, but the greatest joy comes from the simplest of tasks, like going with my assistant to do a maintenance check on our vehicle. It's something I don't have to do, but it let's me get my hands dirty with soldiers. I can't wait till we go to the field. While the job is a big one, I think that's becoming something I really like about it. It is impossible to run out of things to do as a chaplain and I really like that. At the same time, if someone is not called to do this, I could see it as the thing that would be the worst part of the job. People talk about having a calling or being called all the time. Usually, it's a pretty abstract thing. In this case, however, I think it directly affects one's perspective in every aspect.

I just realized that this post is pretty much a bunch of unorganized thoughts that I've been considering for the past couple of weeks. If it doesn't make sense, I apologize, but it was pretty therapeutic for me to put the thoughts into words.

Getting started

2008-04-15T20:42:00.002-05:00

A lot has happened since last Wednesday. I finished in processing on Thursday and met a couple of people at my unit. Then I took a 4 day pass to go and get my family from NJ. It was really great to see them pull into my parents' drive way on Friday. We spent Saturday with my parents, sister, brother-in-law and new niece. My wife and girls loved getting to meet her for the first time and I think my son actually enjoyed it as well. We spent most of Sunday back at our old church. I got to do the dedication for my niece in the morning. That was a really cool thing to get to do. Then, that evening I did a sample field service for the youth group and answered questions. On Monday, we made the long trek up to Ft. Drum. It took me over 2 hours to get the vehicles unpacked when we got here. Our room at the Fort Drum Inn is quite a sight, but we have a roof over our head and a place lie our heads, so I guess it could be a lot worse. Please pray that we get housing soon. I spent the day today learning all that I could from the outgoing chaplain. Today was his last day and I'm really thankful that he spent so much of it introducing me to people and letting me know some very important details. My chaplain assistant is also great. I've been praying and hoping that I would get a good assistant for a long time. I can already tell I'll get along well with him and that he'll take care of me. I plan on doing my best to take care of him as well.

A suspicion of mine has also been confirmed. After Bible College and Seminary, I quickly learned that while school is really necessary to do the job well, it is only a small part of your education. In the end, you learn about 85% from experience. I have been suspecting that my time at the chaplain school would have the same results and after today, I think I'm correct. It's not the fault of seminaries or the chaplain school either. In the end, it's just the nature of the job. It's one of those jobs that you have to do to really learn.

Great Quote

2008-04-10T15:37:00.001-05:00

We asked our Soldiers to sprint, and they did. We asked them to run a marathon, and they have. That marathon has become an enduring relay and our Soldiers continue to run, and at the double time. Does this exhaust the body and mind of those in the race, and those who are ever present on the sidelines, cheering their every step? Yes. Has it broken the will of the Soldier? No. Our Soldiers do not quit. They stand on a tradition of victory for this country, and don't just want to run the race, they want to win it. We can not take their resiliency for granted.

from AHP Quotes

Army Vice Chief of Staff Gen. Richard A. Cody, to the House Armed Services Subcommittee on Readiness, April 9, 2008

I thinks these items say, "Welcome to fort Drum."

2008-04-09T21:36:00.004-05:00

I'm not really sure about this, but I doubt there are very many other Army Posts that issue items with your TA-50 like what you see below. They are called the extreme cold weather boots and mittens. Getting my gear today was like Christmas. It is almost all brand new. This is a big change compared to what I got used to at CH-BOLC. The best part may be the ruck sack that is at least 3 times bigger.

I also found out what unit I will be in today. I'll be serving with the 91st Military Police Battalion.
This was a pretty unexpected assignment, but I've heard a lot of good things about the unit already. They're not even listed on the 10th Mountain Home page because they were newly reactivated in 2005. I'm looking forward to getting started.

Finally, I visited a church tonight and went to the prayer service. I knew of the church from working with the pastor on a missions trip in Canada and meeting him again this year at my NAMB commissioning service. It was nice to connect with a local church in the area.

Reporting Live From Ft. Drum, NY

2008-04-07T14:40:00.003-05:00

Graduation day was great. It's an absolutely wonderful feeling to be done with CH-BOLC and move on to actually being a chaplain.

I got to spend a couple of days at my sister's house (our old house) and visit my old church over the weekend. I spoke on the Army chaplaincy in Sunday School and I did an example field service for 1830, the ministry I used lead (not the time) in the evening. It was so nice to be there again and see people that I have been missing.

I arrived at Ft. Drum today and checked in. Tomorrow I start a long week of in-processing. So far the weather has been great (Sunny and 60 degrees). I must have arrived at just the right time.

Below are some pictures from graduation. I know I took a picture with my in-laws, but they must have not used my camera, because I couldn't find it on there. I'll post that one later whenever it gets sent to me.

Week 13 - Day 5 (1 more day!)

2008-04-03T21:57:00.004-05:00

It's hard for me to wrap my mind around it right now, but I graduate from CH-BOLC tomorow and I will officially be a branch certified Army Chaplain. True to form, this last week has been crazy. We had PREP training Monday to Wednesday and then the banquet last night. It was our first formal military event. Overall it was a fun evening even though I had some extra work because I was on the committee. Here are some pictures:

Tomorrow is graduation. I'll get to NJ on Saturday and see my niece for the first time. Sunday, I'll be back at Grace Fellowship for the morning service and 1830. Then on Monday, I arrive at Ft. Drum to sign into my unit.

Week 12 - Day 5

2008-03-27T18:56:00.002-05:00

So far our entire week of training has been on getting certified as an instructor in Family Wellness. This is a program that is approved for use in the army's Strong Bonds program. The army has approved 40 million dollars for chaplains to take army families on retreats and family wellness is one of the programs we can use with them. Tomorrow, we will be trained in PICK, which also known as how not to marry a jerk and is for single soldier retreats. Next week we get trained in PREP, for couples retreats. It is encouraging to see how much emphasis the army is putting on families. I hope and pray that God will use me to bring him glory when I get the opportunity to lead these events.

Must Read article about Army Chaplains

2008-03-24T19:44:00.001-05:00

If you don't read anything else today, please read this. I know it's kind of long, but it's completely worth the read.

Week 12 - Day 1

2008-03-23T19:20:00.003-05:00

Last Week was capstone and in my opinion it was a great week. We spent most of our time putting the skills we've been learning into practice. Personally, I really enjoy being out in the field much more than the classroom/office type of environment. Some highlights include: The 5 mile ruck march out to the FOB, First Aid Training with a purple heart winning medic from Brooklyn, Victory Tower, Advising the commander on ethical problems, MASCAL training, Ramp Ceremony training, Convoy Ops, Artillery Simulators at 0015, FBCB2 at 0030, 4th Platoon Maundy Thursday service, 17 guys in a tent (enough said), non stop Nacho Libre quotes, and so much more. The week was a huge confidence builder for me. I realized how much I have learned and that I really have become an Army Chaplain.

The other news of the week is that I am not being assigned to the 2-14 Infantry. There is a need in another battalion which is deploying later this year. Since the Chief of Chaplains mandates that no unit deploys without a chaplain, I'm going there. I'll find out what unit it is when I get to Drum. Even though it means I'm probably not getting an infantry unit (like I wanted) and I'll be deploying earlier, I find myself at complete peace with the change. I have 100% confidence that God will put me where he wants me and I know that his will perfect.

We had a good a weekend as a family. The highlights were going to the zoo on Saturday, the kids finding their easter baskets full this morning and communion at Chapel Next.

Happy Resurrection Day!

Week 11 - Day 1 (amazing storry included)

2008-03-16T08:55:00.003-05:00

Friday

Classes were pretty good on Friday. We learned about making our battle books and how to plan religious support when our unit gets up orders. We also learned our part when someone is seeking conscientious objector status. After classes, I met my family for dinner and we had a good night.

Saturday

We went out to lunch and then shopping for the girl's easter dresses. We had planned on spending the rest of the day at home, but there were tornado warnings in our county. Since a mobile home is not exactly the safest place to be during a tornado, we decided to go somewhere a bit safer until the warning expired. Since it was dinner time, we went to dinner at Applebee's. Usually, we don't take the kids there, because it gets pretty expensive with kids meals. Anyway, my wife and I got something less expensive then we normally get to even it all out. Anyway, we were just waiting for the waitress take our credit card when the manager comes over to the table. He told us that as another customer was leaving, he gave the manager $100 and told him have us get whatever we wanted since I'm in the military. I wasn't in uniform or anything. I was wearing a gray army pt shirt and he must of overheard our conversation, because I don't know how else he could have known I was military for sure. To say the least we were pretty floored and just kind of starred at the manager for a couple of seconds. It reminded me that there are still a lot of people out there that really appreciate the sacrifices made by the people who serve our country. Anyway, we decided to get dessert. It was great, but my wife and I both ended up with stomach aches from eating too much. I still can't believe that happened. It made my day, but I feel a little unworthy of it since I haven't personally sacrificed all that much yet. I'm trying to look at it as one man's appreciation for all who have served, are serving and will serve. If you're ever in the position to do something like this and have the means, I encourage you to do so. It will make a soldier's day.

Week 10 - Day 5

2008-03-13T21:17:00.002-05:00

It's turned out to be a great week.

I started feeling better on Tuesday morning and have felt great ever since. Tuesday was a day of rest and refreshment for our platoon at cadence international retreat center near Ft. Jackson. It's a great ministry to soldiers and really great place. Wednesday was some great training on battlefield communication equipment that is really cool. Today I got to do my field service. I was so excited about getting to preach for the first time in months. My service went great and I got all positive comments. I also met my family at the zoo this afternoon and then we all went out to dinner together. It's really amazing how much my spirits have been lifted since this time last week when I was at my sickest point. God is good.

Week 10 - Day 2

2008-03-10T21:48:00.002-05:00

I'm still not feeling right, but I made it through the day. PT was the toughest part. I've never been a fast runner, but today was definitely my slowest day ever. The rest of the day was pretty slow, so that helped. Each platoon presented a sample memorial service and graveside ceremony. Even when you know it's just practice and not at all for real, the process is still pretty moving. Funerals are moving anyway, but when you add in all the military honors, it takes things to a whole new level. I found myself praying that God would use me when I have the privilege of doing it for real in the future.

I found out last week what specific unit in the 10th Mountain I'm projected to serve. I'm going to the 2-14 infantry. Like most units, it's has a pretty storied history dating back to the civil war. If you've seen the movie Blackhawk Down, the 2-14 had major role in the rescue part of the true story. I'm pretty excited to be going to this unit.

Still Alive

2008-03-09T19:28:00.002-05:00

This is a post to let everyone who reads this know that I'm still alive. I've had a stomach virus since Wednesday evening and it pretty much put me out of commission. It was so bad that I've been restricted to quarters since Thursday morning. I'm still dealing with it tonight, but I'm hoping to be well enough for PT and classes by the morning. Please pray for healing.

Amazing Film

2008-03-04T20:24:00.002-05:00

Part of a Chaplain's duty is to minister to wounded and dying soldiers. We were shown an Emmy winning HBO film documentary, called "Baghdad ER" to help us try to wrap our minds around this ministry. The film is a documentary about a CSH (Combat Support Hospital) in Baghdad. There is significant footage of the army chaplain assigned to the unit. It is a very sobering film that isn't easy to watch, but it really made me consider this aspect of ministry in a much deeper way. The bravery of the soldiers is overwhelmingly evident. The commitment of the doctors, nurses and medics in spite of their frustration is inspirational. All of it is heart-wrenching. Someone posted it in parts on youtube. The link for the page of the person who posted it is here. Just scroll down a little and you'll see the category. I've also embedded the first part of those uploads below and if you look hard enough you will find the site where the makers offer it for free download. This is not something you should watch if you have a weak stomach. Also be warned that this is very raw footage without censorship for modesty or language. If you can handle it, it will give you a whole new appreciation for soldiers.

Pray for the wounded soldiers. Pray for those who treat them. Pray for their families. Pray for the commanders and others in the unit who are racked with guilt. Pray fro the chaplains who attempt to bring them spiritual comfort and hope.

Week 9 - Day 2

2008-03-03T20:20:00.002-05:00

A brief run-down of what's happened since the last update:

Thursday

We had some training on pluralism and then a panel of senior chaplains to answer questions on the subject. The army is by nature a pluralistic environment. To disallow any one religion or establish any one religion would violate religious freedom. Does it put limits on ministry? At times yes. I try to look at it this way. Jesus put on flesh, became human and in doing so, limited the practice of some of his attributes. If he could do that, I can certainly live with the limits of putting on a uniform to reach soldiers. We ended the day with more training on battlemind injuries.

Friday

Friday's training was on resource management. While it is obviously very necessary training, it's hard to get excited about it and even harder to soak it all in. hope I retain enough of it so that I can effectively obtain the funds I need for ministry when I get to Ft. Drum. The best part of the day was definitely getting to see my family.

Saturday

We spent the whole day at home. The kids have all been trading some kind of illness back and forth, so none of them are too happy at the same time. It was still nice to spend the day with my wife and children.

Sunday

I got up early enough to make it to one of the chapel services that I still needed to visit. This one happened to be the LDS (Mormon) service. Having never experienced one of these services before, it was definitely an interesting and enlightening experience. I did learn that there are a lot more Mormons in the army than I thought, because the chapel was completely packed. After that, I met my famiy at Chapel Next. It was a good service and I think the girls enjoyed being back there this Sunday. We had a nice lunch and then I came back to Ft. Jackson and worked on homework for the rest of the day.

Today

Today's training was mostly spent going over a study guide for a Field Manual. We also got to hear from a Brigade Commander. This Colonel was a been there done that kind of officer, so it was pretty cool to hear his perspective on chaplains. We also spent some time learning about AR 165-1. That's the army regulation that guides spells out everything a chaplain does and cannot do. It;s also a pretty important thing to know.

That's all for now.

Week 8 - Day 4

2008-02-27T20:13:00.002-05:00

Tuesday

Our class started to do our practice field services today. Both guys in our platoon did a good a job and it was nice change to start our day. I don't do mine until March 13, but I'm looking forward to it. The rest of the day was panels. The morning was a panel discussion with NCO chaplain assistants. The afternoon was a discussion panel with chaplains who have deployed to the COE (contemporary operating environment). Both were very interesting. I kind of wish they were recorded because there was a lot of good stuff, but it was hard to take any kind of organized notes in that format.

Today

Today's teaching was comprised of two very long, but very important lectures. One was on Suicide prevention. Since it will be my job to give these briefs in my unit and since suicide is a major issue in the Army, it's a very important topic. The other one was on combat stress. I think we only got halfway through that one in 3 1/2 hours.

For some reason, the PT seems to have "ramped up" a bit over the past two days. Yesterdays muscle failure included much more "extra stuff" than usual. Today my run group ran in our NCO's words "by far the farthest and fastest we have run so far." I'm not sure what prompted the change, but it's a very welcome one in my opinion. It's hard and it hurts, but I know that's a good thing.

Finally, today is special day for me. At this moment exactly 10 years ago, my wife and I were out on our first date. After a false start (my truck blew up before we got off campus), it was a great night. We saw, The Rainmaker, with Matt Damon and Danny Devito and got ice cream at Hagen Das. I remember being so excited and nervous at the same time. After 10 years, I still love taking her out on dates. I even still feel that same excitement that I first felt 10 years ago. I love you, honey.

Week 8 - Day 2

2008-02-25T20:05:00.004-05:00

Friday

The big thing on Friday was a PT test. I scored almost exactly the same as the first time. I think my total score was one point higher, which is fine because I was already well into the passing range.
I was nice to see some people pass for the first time and get out of remedial PT. The rest of the day was more on pastoral counseling. This was some pretty good stuff. It's just one of those things that hard to learn from PowerPoint and role plays. When I finally got home, my wife was feeling pretty rotten, so I tried to take care of her and the kids.

Saturday

We went to a birthday party for my sister-in-law/family reunion for my father-in-law's side of the family. It was a nice day. Other than that, we didn't do much of anything which was really nice.

Sunday

We went to church at my wife's grandmother's church since her whole family was there. Then we went out to lunch together. After that, I came back to Ft. Jackson and finished paper on the moral and theological implications of killing and evil in combat.

Today

Today we had some classes on Chaplaincy doctrine and the FCS (Future Combat Systems). Check out the link. The video shows where the army is heading in about 2 years time. It portrays a company getting combat orders, training for the mission, deploying and completing the mission all within 72 hours. The technological advances are pretty amazing. The afternoon was spent learning about the Navy, Air Force chaplaincy and ministry in the JIIM (Joint, International, Intergovernmental and Multinational) environment. After that, I went and bought both of my dress uniforms. Active Duty Chaplains have to have both Class As (the green uniform) and the very formal Dress Blues (a throw back to the revolutionary and civil war eras). I think I have now spent more money on clothing in 7 weeks than I spent in the previous 5 years.

I had to go to Wal-Mart for something after I got done at clothing sales, so I was still in my ACU's. After I was done, a homeless man stopped me as I was walking back to my car. He said, "Chaplain, I'm so glad you're here. Can you pray for me?" I prayed for him right there in the Wal-Mart parking lot and then told him I wished I could do more. He told me that I had already done more for him than anyone else had in a long time. After I had some time to think about it, I realized what had just happened. Someone at the bottom of their rope saw a man in uniform with a cross and immediately put their faith in that person's ability to minister to them. I was suddenly very humbled because that man based his faith in me on the examples of chaplains who have come before me. There is a great responsibility that comes with that faith. Please pray that I never forget that and live up to it. Please also pray for Jerry. All that he would tell me was that he was homeless and had grown up as a military kid.

Week 7 - Day 5

2008-02-21T22:06:00.002-05:00

The last two days have been fairly uneventful. On Wednesday we had classes on confidentiality and Religious area assessments. The best part of the day was definitely the class on developing a plan for our own spiritual fitness. Today was spent entirely on pastoral counseling and tomorrow will be more of the same.

This is a post my wife made on her blog yesterday. Reading it, reminded me once again of how blessed I am to spend my life with this amazing woman.

Week 7 - Day 3

2008-02-19T20:43:00.002-05:00

Monday

Yesterday was a nice day. I let Mer sleep in and got up with the kids. Eventually we all went out to CIU for lunch. I think that was the first time I've eaten there at a non-event since I was student 7 years ago. It felt a little like coming home for the first time in a long time. After lunch we visited my old roommate's office at WMHK. I think the girls really liked his chalk board wall. Then we headed back to Ft. Jackson where the girls enjoyed playing on the playground and watching cartoons for awhile. After they left, I finished a couple of assignments I had coming up.

Today

I really enjoyed class today. We spent the whole day on the topic of "Performing Religious Services in the Contemporary Operating Environment." This is the kind of stuff that gets me excited. I had to put the preacher in me aside for the last 6 weeks and it's nice to get to pick it back up again. Over the next 6 weeks we each get to perform a "practice" field service. We each get a scenario that is similar to something that could take place in a deployed environment and we tailor our 20 minute service to that scenario. Yes, I did say 20 minutes. That includes any singing, scripture reading, preaching and communion. 20 minutes may seem like a short time, but it's realistic in the very busy environment of a deployment. I'm looking forward to the challenge.

Week 7 - Day 1

2008-02-17T16:52:00.002-05:00

Today has been a really nice and relaxing day. We went to Chapel Next this morning and heard a message on a topic that has been largely ignored by the church. Then we all went out to Chillis for lunch and had a great meal. I've been spending the afternoon with my daughters while my wife is out with my in-laws and our son.

I cam across a blog entry today that is a must read for any current or future CH-BOLC students. It's a post from a Chaplain at Ft. Hood who was a Summer '07 CH-BOLC student about the reality of day to day ministry. Check it out here when you get the chance.

Week 6 - Day 6

2008-02-16T20:31:00.002-05:00

Things continue to go well. Even though most of our time is being spent in the classroom it seems like we are more busy than ever. I'll give a quick run down of the last couple of days with a few comments here and there.

Wednesday

Many of us were pretty nervous on Wednesday morning. We had to give 3 minute long "practice briefings." While most of us have a lot of public speaking experience, the format of military briefs is pretty rigid and very different from what I'm used to doing. The time thing had me most worried. When i preach, i prefer to have at least 30 minutes to get my point across. We were informed that if we went more than 30 seconds over, we would have to repeat it. Everyone in my group did pretty well and I thought it was a great learning experience, since we will all be giving briefs to our commanders before long. The afternoon was great. We had a battalion commander and command sergeant major each come in and talk about their job in relation to chaplains. Both were very informative and the CSM was very entertaining as well. We ended the day with a brief about the upcoming prayer breakfast.

Since we got out earlier than usual, I decided to surprise my wife by meeting her at the prayer meeting she's been going to on Wednesdays. I snuck up behind her and gave her a kiss. She almost jumped out of her skin, but I think she enjoyed the surprise. Little did she know, i was also "setting her up" from Valentine's day.
Thursday

We had a prayer breakfast in the morning. It went pretty well and all in all I thought it was a good time. The speaker was a recently retired chaplain's assistant sergeant major. He was definitely the highlight of the morning. I always enjoy hearing from someone with that much experience in the chaplaincy. Our morning class was Army Doctrine. It was good information, but it's hard to make a 3 hour class on a subject like that turn into something interesting. The afternoon class, on the other hand was very, very interesting. If you ever want to get a bunch of chaplains riled up, start a discussion counseling soldiers on the moral implications of combat. Considering things like whether or not chaplains are combat multipliers is quite controversial.

I got my sister-in-law to go over to my family's house and tell my wife she just wanted to hang out because they both didn't have their valentine with them. I figured that my wife would never expect me showing up, since I had surprised her the night before and I was right. My sister-in-law and a fried watched the kids and I took M out to dinner. It was a great night.

Friday

Friday was a short day. We played Ultimate Frisbee for pt and then spent the rest of he morning saying good bye to those who were going home after phase I. It was hard to see some of them go after spending 6 weeks training with them. After that, I had a graduation banquet committee meeting and then the week was over. I'm spending the weekend with my family and it's been nice to have nothing to do for a change.

Thanks for reading.

week 6 - day 2

2008-02-11T22:08:00.000-05:00

Friday

I think we started the day by learning about how to write Army Memos. Of course, there is a very specific way that these have to be written and it is very important for us to be able to write them correctly. Then there was a ceremony for the 90th anniversary of the school and the 50th anniversary of the museum. I guess it was nice, but it also meant that our day would be a lot longer. After lunch we started out with a class on promoting a program for moral development. After that, we learned about public relations and then ended our day with a class on how to give briefs. The briefs are also very important and have to be done in a very specific way. By the time the day ended, my mouth was pounding, so I just stayed at Ft. Jackson for the night.

Saturday

I slept in as late as I could and then went our to be with my family. We had a nice a lunch and then went over to my college roommate's house for his birthday. We had a nice time there and a great meal.

Sunday

We slept in and then went to Chapel Next. After that, we had lunch at the PX and then I went back to my room to finish a couple of assignments.

Today

It was nice to be allowed to do PT again this morning. I feel like I'm doing catch-up after missing a whole week. We had a quiz today (which I passed) and then we did some leadership role plays in our platoon. After that we learned about the revolutionary battle at Cowpens. The movie, "The Patriot," is loosely based on this battle and the events leading up to it. We then spent the rest of the day driving to, visiting and driving back from the battlefield. Overall, it was an interesting trip. Since I grew up so close to the Battle of Monmouth and have seen the reenactment more than once, it wasn't anything all that knew to me. Still, it was interesting and hands on history lesson.

Week 5 - Day 5

2008-02-07T19:51:00.000-05:00

I'm feeling a little better every day. My mouth wasn't throbbing today. It's down to a dull ache.

Today was another day of classes. The day started with chapel and then we had our first mock staff meeting during platoon time. After that we had teaching on risk management in regards to ethical issues. Chaplains are expected to be the subject matter experts on ethics, so classes like this one should help us to be proactive about advising the commander in this area.

After that. my platoon learned about understanding the training cycle. Since this can be slightly different for each unit, I think the most important thing we learned is to be aware of the training schedule and make sure we plan things far in advance.

After lunch we had 2 hours of self directed study on the Army writing style. The basic idea is that you have to write in the most simplistic way possible.

Our last class was on counseling subordinates. That was some really good instruction and advice on how to have an effective working relationship with our Chaplain Assistants.

I'm hoping I'll feel even better tomorow.

Week 5- Day 4

2008-02-06T22:50:00.000-05:00

My restriction to quarters ended at 0730 this morning!!! Even though I was still in pretty bad pain, I was glad to get out of my room. I made it through classes today with a throbbing mouth, but it was still better than lying in bed all day. Today started with an Ash Wednesday service for chapel. I actually learned the purpose behind the ashes and can't say that I disagree with the symbol. I didn't go up and get marked or anything, but I definitely got something out of the service.

The rest of the day was as follows:

Just War
Supervising distinctive faith group leaders
Lunch
The Chaplain Corps strategic plan
The professional ethic of an officer
Reflections from a retired Chaplain that served in Vietnam and volunteers as the school's chaplain.

Despite the constant distraction of my mouth, I learned something in each class, so it was a good day.

Week 5 - Day 2

2008-02-04T20:57:00.001-05:00

I had my wisdom teeth extracted today. My wife picked me up at 0730 to go get directions from the clinic. We went to the oral surgeon. One minute I was getting the IV and the next moment I woke up to the nurse saying they were done. M took me back to the clinic and they put me on bed rest until Wednesday at 0730. I'm also not allowed to do PT until next week, which I'm not happy about. M stayed with me as long as she could and did a great job playing nurse. I love her so much. The pain isn't that bad. Ice takes care of most of it and the meds wipe out the rest. I'm just getting pretty restless. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy it's done and that the army takes such good care of soldiers. I guess God is teaching me patience again.

Week 5 - Day 1

2008-02-03T23:00:00.000-05:00

Saturday

We had a fun day. We took the kids to the zoo again. This time, the girls got to ride the ponies. They had a great time. David seemed to enjoy the zebras and the birds most. The rest of the day was pretty calm. I slept a lot, so I must be more worn out at the end of a week than I even realize. I came back to Ft. Jackson in the evening because I needed to attend an 8 am chapel service.

Sunday

I attended the chapel for brand new (less than a week) basic trainees. It was a pretty good service and sermon. I think the chaplain did a really great job picking a text that would encourage these very nervous, brand new soldiers. After that, I went to the Jewish service. Since I grew up in a town that was very Jewish, I didn't learn anything new. The rabbi was pretty entertaining, so at least it was an interesting hour. I also learned that there is a good bagel shop near Ft. Jackson. My family met me for Chapel Next. It was a good service that wrapped up the series on money. After that, we went to lunch and then back home. I came back to Ft. Jackson again and watched the Super Bowl.

THE GIANTS WON!!!

I'm still freaking out over this. It's even sweeter because they ended the Pats perfect season.

Tomorrow will not be a fun day. I'm getting all four of my wisdom teeth removed. I'm hoping to recover quickly because I hate missing any training. I appreciate prayers for little pain and a quick recovery.

Week 4 - Day 6

2008-02-01T20:32:00.000-05:00

Thursday

There isn't much to say about yesterday. PT was the best it's been yet. We did circuit training. There are different stations including regular push-ups, ski jumps, close hand push-ups, jumping jacks, wide arm push-ups, jog in place, flutter kicks, high knee raises, rocky sit-ups, and a lap around the whole area. The first time around we spent 60 seconds at each, then 45 seconds and then 30 seconds. It completely smoked me, which I really liked. In my opinion, PT isn't worth it if I;m not exhausted at the end. The rest of the day there really wasn't much going on. For the most part we just worked on stuff for the upcoming phases.

Friday

Today's PT was a lot of fun. We played Ultimate Frisbee. My platoon (4th) won both of our games, which makes it even more fun. Hook and Loop!! (<--Our platoon motto) We had chapel after that. Then we had platoon time and the beret donning ceremony. I'm not a big fan of the beret, but I'm getting more used to it after wearing it most of today. After lunch, I went left to spend the weekend with my family. M and I got to out to dinner by ourselves tonight since my sister-in-law was baby sitting. It should be a really nice weekend.

Week 4 - Day 4

2008-01-30T21:20:00.000-05:00

Today was another slower day as we finish up the CIMT (Chaplain Initial Military Training) phase of CH-BOLC. We took two quizzes today. I passed both pretty easily, but some will have to take a re-test tomorow. The first one was pretty easy, but the second one was a lot harder. It was on the Army in general and there were a lot of acronyms, so it could get pretty confusing. After lunch we had a brief on mobilization for the reserves and national guard. Then we had a brief from the ascensions officer. It was very informative concerning things we need to know about our careers. It was also very inspiring concerning the ministry we will have as battalion chaplains. Our day ended with getting our beret wear and fit checked by the NCOs so that will be ready to don them on Friday.

Week4 - Day3

2008-01-29T19:59:00.000-05:00

Today started out with some fun PT at 0530. Tuesday and Thursdays are muscle failure days and the NCO's made a game of it. They picked playing cards from a deck. Each suit represented a different exercise. I think hearts were regular push ups, diamonds were wide arm push ups, clubs were regular sit-ups and spades were Rocky sit-ups (where you swing your elbows at the top). 2-9 were worth that many reps, face cards were 20, aces were 25 and jokers were wild. We did them for awhile and it wasn't that hard. The only hard part was that we kept getting sit-ups over and over. Otherwise, I liked how random it was.

The rest of the day wasn't all that exciting. We had chapel and platoon time. Then we spent the rest of the day in a JAG briefing. We learned about the military justice system, which is very different from the civilian world. We also learned about the policy on homosexuality, the Law of War and Ethics. It wasn't anything exciting, but at least I learned a lot of new stuff. I got my first LES statement at the end of the day. It was nice to know what I'm going to get paid on Friday.

We have 2 quizzes tomorow that a lot of people are worried about. Everyone keeps telling us that they will be easy, but those of us who haven't taken many army tests are still a little nervous. I'm sure it will be fine, but I'll be glad when we're done.

Week 4 - Day 2

2008-01-28T21:46:00.000-05:00

Saturday

I slept in as late as I could and then went to see my family. We had a nice lunch with my wife's sister and grandmother and then went back to the house. After the kids were in bed, I went back to Fort Jackson for the night. I can't wait till this week is over and I can get weekend passes. Then I can spend the night somewhere else besides on post.

Sunday

I started my morning at the Catholic Mass. It was pretty much like every other mass I've ever been too except the sermon was longer than normal. There were probably 300 BCT and AIT trainees in there. After that I went to the Basic Training protestant service. It was pretty short, which was nice. Then I met my family at Chapel Next. I really enjoy that service. It's even nicer after going to the other ones that I'm required to attend at least once. It's not that there's anything really wrong with the other the chapels. It simply comes down to knowing where I fit and feeling most comfortable there. After that we went out to lunch and then I went back to prepare for my week.

Monday

Today was a pretty good day. We had PT and it was a run day. Maybe I'm crazy, but I really enjoy PT. If it wasn't at 0530, I would enjoy it even more. Chapel was pretty good. Then we had a class on Convoys and IED's. The morning also consisted of classes on handing classified information and pluralism. The class on pluralism was stuff that I already knew, but it's still interesting. In the end, the way the Army approaches this is even more conducive to evangelism than church ministry. In the church, it would be very unlikely for someone of another faith to ever seek out my help. In the Army, this is common. My job isn't to counsel them according to their faith, but rather to facilitate their freedom of religion and find someone who can help them. According to our instructor, doing this often builds respect and confidence which results in those same people coming to you and asking what you believe. At this point, I'm free to counsel them according to my faith. That's an amazing opportunity. Of course, I can also share my faith with anyone who does not identify with a religion. I like this more and more every time I think about it. The afternoon was a class on preventative vehicle maintenance and a convoy simulation. After that we got out a little early. It seems like this will be a pretty calm week of training. I have to admit it's nice after the first 3 weeks.

Week 3 - Day 6

2008-01-25T17:40:00.000-05:00

I learned a lot during my 3 days in the field this week. The most important thing that I learned though, is that our soldiers deserve all the respect in the world. Being a soldier is extremely hard work and in the end, it really is a sacrifice. Take every opportunity you get to thank soldiers for what they're doing. They may react in a very humble manner, but they will appreciate your thanks and affirmation.

We left at around 0500 on Tuesday. It was a lot of review and testing on the things we learned last week about land navigation, communication, first aid and NBC. For me, it was the hardest day because we didn't move much. I get a little restless when I'm standing around for too long. We also got to observe a field service and spend some time talking to the Chaplains who are training us. Tat was really valuable time and I learned a lot.

Wednesday morning was day land navigation. It was fun. The time that I led with the compass, we had to go straight through the thickest vegetation I have ever seen for about 75-100 meters. I mean, this is the kind of stuff that a normal person wouldn't even attempt to go through with a big machete. It was planned that way, but I kept us fairly straight and we found our check point. The hardest part was actually breaking through everything to make a path for my group. I didn't have my gloves on because my hands were hot and they got pretty torn up, since I still have "pastor hands." Then that afternoon we went to a course with 18 or so obstacles like stuff to jump over, crawl under and climb up. We went through as squads and it was a lot of fun. It was the kind of thing that you would pay to take a youth group to for team building. That evening we did night land navigation. That was pretty easy and our group found all our points on time.

Thursday morning we went to a range to learn who to crawl and move tactically. First we did a sand course where we high crawled (where you keep your stomach on the ground and use your elbows) low crawled (side of your helmet in the sand and pull yourself with one arm) and went under barbed wire on our backs. It's a lot more tiring than it looks, but still a lot of fun. Then we went through a course where we learned how to move through a combat area with our chaplain's assistants. That was really cool because we got to work with actual chaplain's assistants in training. That afternoon we learned some more stuff to help us stay safe when we deploy. I don't want to go into it all on here, but it was good training. At night we did the NIC (night infiltration course). That's the fairly long, sand course where you crawl the whole way while live fire goes over your head and there are explosions. You have to go under wire on your back a couple of times as well. It's not easy, but it's also a lot of fun. In fact, I would love to do that kind of thing again with my unit. We got back from the field around 2130 on Thursday night.

Over all, sleeping conditions weren't that bad. We slept in tents big enough for our platoons (about 20). We had cots and our sleeping bags, so we were warm and dry at night. It wasn't real comfortable, but I slept fine. We had hot breakfasts and dinners each night that were good. Lunch was MRE's, but those actually weren't as bad as everyone says. I had meatloaf, beef and ribs, but they all tasted the same to me. I really didn't mind being out there all dirty and tired. I kept having these moments where I would just realize how much I felt totally at home in the army. I really can't imagine doing anything else. I really can't wait to do all this stuff with my unit, so I can be there for them when they need it the most. Of course, I prefer having a shower and sleeping in a bed every day, but I can see how my best ministry will probably take place in the field.

Today was a simple day. It was just recovery. We had chapel, some platoon time and learned how to clean our gear. It was a nice, relaxing day after three intense days. I'm looking forward to spending tomorow with my wife and kids. I really missed them this week.